Melt for me

Chaper thirty two

                                                                      **Elsa**

The moonlight lights my path, as  I walk with a spring in my step. The forest has gotten thicker and I can no longer see my kingdom. Which only adds to the guilt that is welding up in my body but I push it down. For once in my life I am thinking for myself, I want to be selfish. 

Anna... Anna doesn't understand. I wince as I think at the harsh words she said to be when I left. "JACK FROST ISN'T REAL" She shouted. "YOUR CRAZY, YOU NEED HELP. Please Elsa... let me help you." I would have felt sorry for her but I tried to explain, I tried to reason with her. But she just kept calling me crazy, I left the room, unnoticed and uncared for.

I knew that would happen. I knew that she would call me crazy and call me out on it. Anna will never understand, never has. Perhaps I can try and make her believe so she can see Jack too. Anna is my sister after all and I won't leave this island on bade terms. Her wondering what happened to me and thinking its her fault. Anna is my sister no matter what, I will always lover her. Even if she hurt my feelings and called me crazy.

I touch my necklace fondly, feeling the cold ice on my fingertips. It glows blue whenever I'm around the one I love, aka Jack. The gift itself is amazing but just the fact that I can prove to Jack how much I love him, is even better. I know that he feels that he isn't good enough for a Queen but I'm leaving that behind.

I won't be Queen Elsa, just Elsa who happens to have an awesome boyfriend. I blush at that thought, I've never had a boyfriend before. Is Jack my boyfriend?  He gave me a present, danced with me and has been seeing me for a long time.  I would ask Anna but she thinks Jack is non existent, so I shouldn't ask her.  Wouldn't ask her... never, ever, again.

The moon shines down on the clearing, making moonbeams bounce off of the freshly fallen snow. A figure stands in the middle of the clearing, looking up at the moon remorselessly. I cock my head to the side. At first glance you wouldn't think its Jack, usually he stands tall, facing life head on, this figure has its shoulders hunched up, tense.

"Jack..." I ask, doubt in my voice. He turns around, his blue eyes wild and fearless. Jack sizes me up, looking over me like I'm some sort of animal. I frown, something is not right. The way his fingers curl around his staff, gripping it with his life. "Jack." I say louder, forcing him to listen to me. 

"Why are you here?" He says, malice dripping from his voice.  I am stunned, his voice doesn't sound like his. Its throaty and raw sounding, like glass has caught in his throat and its slowly ripping it apart. "I chose you Jack.. I want to be with you." I say placing my hand on his arm. He rips away from my touch and makes a disgusted sound in the back of hi throat. I flinch. 

"Be with me? What gave you the idea that I want to be with you?"   My eyes widen. "You... You said that you loved me and I love you. Why are you acting like this?"  Jack tips back his head and laughs. "Acting? No Elsa I have finally got some sense talked into me. I was going to beg the man on the moon to make you immortal but then Tooth came and lets just say she convinced me otherwise"

"I never really loved you Elsa. It was all a game to me, a silly, stupid game and the only real point was to make you fall in love with me."  My heart drops into my stomach. I try and blink back the tears. Even through it all my necklace still glows blue, showing that I'm by the person I love. I touch the surface of the gift. Remembering when he gave it to me...

I grip it. "No... No Jack your not right in the head, just let me-" Jack's eyes travel to my necklace, anger written on his face. In one swift moment he is yanking the necklace off of me. I try to grab it away from him.

The necklace breaks in have, leaving me with one piece and him with the other. Jack pushes me on the ground, a big arrogant sneer on his face.  "Face it Elsa, your a monster and you'll always be a monster. You'll die lonely and angry."  My hands quiver as I clutch the necklace, its blue light fading fast.  It once looked so pretty to me... now it just serves as a reminder of how I was tricked.

Monster... Jack called me a monster. I thought... I thought Jack loved me. To think... I loved him too.  Tears spill on my face and the ground underneath me starts freezing. I intensely glare at him , waves of anger coming from me. "I HATE YOU JACK FROST! I HATE YOU AND I WILL NEVER EVER BELIEVE IN YOU AGAIN!"  I scream at him. Roaring like a lion, ice shards spitting out every where.

Jack blinks a couple of times. "Elsa...?" He questions as he gives me his hand. I slap it away. "GET AWAY FROM ME!" I get up, tripping a little bit. "I HATE YOU! GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK. NO WONDER NO ONE BELIEVES IN YOU!" Jack looks hurt. "Elsa.. Why.."  At first he reaches out to me  but then his fist slowly closes around  his piece of the  necklace. "Its... Its for the best." He says weakly as he flies away. Not looking back at the horrible mess I have become.

Away from the island.... away from me.

I am stumbling and tripping down the hill. Trying to get far away as I can from Jack. He used me... It was just one big game for him and the prise? My tears and self loathing.  No one could ever love someone like me.  Tears cloud my vision as I push sharp thorny branches out of the way. They cut and scape my hands up but I hardly feel them. 

Monster... he thinks I'm a monster. No... Jack always thought I was a monster.

 I fall on the ground one  last time and I don't bother getting up. The sky that was once clear and calm, now has a snow storm lurking over head. Love is a horrible thing. It pushed me up, making me feel like someone. Like I was good for something other then destruction.

Then it twisted me and my feelings. Left me breathless and empty, taking away my heart and feelings.  I start crying. Great sobs echo out of me , feeing the area with the sounds of my racking sobs. 

I once loved someone... and look what that did to me. It turned me into a bundle of tears.  My mind replays the way Jack looked at me. Disgust... It was clearly there.  The necklace it no longer blue, proving that he is far away from here. Good...

He has treated me horribly and yet... and yet my mind goes back to the days where he held me close. Whispered sweet nothings into my ear, confessed things to me.. and I to him. "I wish I could just forget.." I sob as more tears come down my face. Forget him and everything he has done.

Black fog fills the air around me, engulfing me and everything around me. "Forget.." It coos. "Its okay to forget.. Forget the good... forget the bad. You don't need him any more."  Yellow eyes full my vision, yellow eyes filled with hatred.  "Sleep and forget him Elsa. Sleep and forget."

One by one my memorises of Jack fade away. I try and hold onto them but they seem to slip through my minds grasp, floating away from me and my memorises.

Jack and his bright blue eyes...

Fading away into nothingness

Jack

blue

eyes

My thoughts become scrambled as I try and imagine the boy in the green  hoodie. Green... No he didn't have a green hoodie. Was it even a hoodie? As my eyes get heavier and heavier, the boy in the hoodie matters les and less.

Soon he isn't even a memory. Just an empty space in my mind.

Jack

blue

The yellow eyes seem more inviting. "Sleep... Elsa." It says dreamily.

Jack

I smile at it as I gratefully take its offer. What is there to lose?