Okay so first of all
IM BACK. And I'm so glad to be back in this great support and community. So when I left there was 200 or so reads. I come back and there is like 600 something. Wth like legit what? I never thought my book would grow and I believe it will continue to. After I left, I deleted the app. My depression was getting bad, my anxiety was increasing, my social interaction was flopping and my whole life was in shambles. After having some time to myself and fixing things. I can say there is a definite improvement in my motivation and self esteem. I feel more determined to get stuff done. I'm more active and I've been taking care of myself. I've been going back to eating (cause I had not been eating much before). Being productive and staying positive. I spent some time on musically which I have been expressing positivity and confidence on. If you didn't know, I'm a panromantic, genderfluid (they/them), maybe poly, teenager. In my very depressed state I would not go into little space. And if I did once or twice it was fake. I've gone into little space three times this week and it was real. I was so happy and energetic. I explained in my diary (read for more context) that me and my boyfriend (ex) broke up. He was my Daddy but we broke up, we still talk and hug and get along great. He's dating someone else and they are really happy. I myself am dating someone who makes me so happy that I could legit cry. He's the best and cares about me alot. He matches my persona and has a sense of humor. He's also shorter than me (im 5'7) so he's so adorable. He is not my Daddy however. I have not told him about my little side. I don't really plan to. I don't want a Daddy at this moment I just want a boyfriend/girlfriend. and anywho I feel more Dom around him. He makes me smile wide and he's the reason I wanna get up and go to school and smile (besides my friends and the classes I like). I hope that I provide the same feeling for him. Keep in mind also my current boyfriend dated my ex (the one above)but broke up with my ex cause he liked me. In conclusion. I hope you didn't think I died or gave up. I stopped so that I wouldn't have to stop farther down the road. My phone has zero storage left so I can't download this app. But I might do it on my tablet. Right now I'm over my friends house writing this on his old ass tablet while he crushes my ribs. Moral of this whole thing: hey, I'm back and gayer than ever. 😥😂😘
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