Save Me From Myself (Klance) [COMPLETED]

Chapter 10: Last Words

Chapter 10: Last Words

September 1st, 2017

Last words.

It had been a month since I last saw Keith or anyone in general. I tucked myself away in my old home, barely leaving my room. I sunk into the deepest depths of depression just as before. I was so weak and I couldn't hold myself together easily.

I came down the stairs, going to the kitchen. I hadn't shaved in days, my hair was severely unkempt, and my breath constantly smelled like booze. My mother always gave me a worried gaze in the morning, something I learned to ignore. But today, she wasn't even home. I checked the dining room and stared at the person sitting at the table.

"What are you doing here?"

"Lance, you've been missing for a month." Shiro said, crossing his arms, "What happened?"

I shrugged, smiling sluggishly, "I lost faith in myself and all of humanity I guess..."

"Have you considered taking anti-depressants?"

"Hell no..." I grunted as I went to the kitchen, pouring myself a cup of orange juice.

He glanced at my hands, "Your nails are a mess..."

"Can't stop biting them..." I didn't paint them anymore, I was too lazy. I set my glass down and popped a cigarette in my mouth, searching my sweatpants pockets for a lighter. I looked up at Shiro holding up his own lighter. I didn't hesitate to borrow it.

"Are you just done being a detective?"

"Nah, just taking a much-needed break..." I inhaled the tobacco, feeling the slow curdling of my darkened lungs. Every breath was pain.

"Well, we need you back..." He looked at me seriously, "We're so close, Lance... If we get Lotor and Haggar, then it'll all be over..."

I stared at him before tossing my small cigarette into the ashtray, "Fine. I'll help. But..." I lowered my eyes, "Take my resignation after it's over..."

His eyes became wide, "What?! No way! I can't have that! You're the best detective we have, Lance!"

"I've lost all my motivation to live..." I mumbled.

He looked bewildered, "Lance, are you considering..."

I smiled sadly at him, nodding. Suddenly, he was gripping me in a tight hug, crying. I was startled; It had been a long time since my last hug...

"Please don't kill yourself, Lance... You have no idea how much you mean to me... To everyone... You touch the hearts of everyone you meet and you brighten everyone's days... I-If you're lost on motivation, I'll help you get it back... I'll help you however I can!" He pulled back, looking at me with tearful eyes, "I love you..."

The words came at me with critical force; It felt like I just got stabbed with a hot knife filled with flashbacks. Keith said he loved me. Hunk admitted to having stronger feelings for me... Now here Shiro was, saying the words I dreaded most of all.

I pushed him away, "Shiro, you don't know what you're saying. I'm so fucked up and broken... Shit, look at me!" I forced out a laugh, "I look like a disaster and I wanna die. What's so great about that, huh? What the fuck are you guys seeing in me? I'm in a fucking love square of doom. You guys have a terrible sense of taste, you know that?"

"What are you talking about?"

I held my head in my hands as I laughed even harder, "Keith... Hunk... You... You're all attracted to me and I hate it so much! I hate myself so much! I don't want you guys to love me. I'm not good. I'm just..."