Jungkook and I always has the same routine everyday- go to work together, eat lunch together, go back home together. I already know what will happen to us everyday but surprisingly, I still can notice something new about him everyday.
Jungkook has turned into a different man that I knew as the days pass by. But those changes turned him to a more diligent, rational, passionate, not to mention, handsome person...
...and those changes starts to change my heart as well.
I know it's kinda not pleasing for everyone, especially to Namjoon because he's our closest friend, but I can't control my heart. Whenever I see him, my heart beats faster. Whenever he talks to me, I sometimes stutter. Whenever we go out and eat lunch together, I'll just find myself already staring at him. He's being the kind of person that matches my standards for a man.
But I still don't know if what I'm feeling right now is right. If I'm just being like this because I'm always with him, that I always see him.
Or am I already really feeling something special for him?
I know my mind still thinks about Namjoon, always, reminiscing every single moment we've been and did together. But my heart says otherwise.
I don't know.. I really don't know... I'm getting confused as well. It's already been years since Namjoon passed away and through the years I've been mourning for him, Jungkook is always there for me, never leaving my side like a real friend he is.
"Well, yes. Chaeyoung has his phone. I gave it to him." My thoughts got interrupted when I heard someone mentioned my name. I almost forgot that we're in the police station for some interview.
"Right, Chae?" I heard Changkyun mentioned my name again.
"H-huh? Oh.. Yes." I answered then brought his phone which is sealed inside a plastic bag to him. "Here."
He gladly take it from me and gave it to his senior officer. I watched them as they made some inspecting on the phone.
The interview ended after an hour, but to no surprise, still no new update about his case.
I walked out of the police station feeling empty until a warm hand grabbed mine which made me stopped walking.
"You okay?" I heard his calming yet masculine voice. I just nodded as answer.
I felt his hand held me tighter but I didn't complain at all but rather like it better because I feel protected in some ways.
"C'mon.. I know a place that will cheer you up." He looked at me with a smile on his face which made me smile back even a little.
Soon, we started walking to I don't know where he'll take me but I don't care as long as I'm with him, I know I'm safe.
After a few minutes of walking, our feet lead us to the place where we always go to whenever we feel down..
...to the amusement park.
"C'mon~ let's not waste a single minute in here. We have loads of new rides to try." He smiled again and starts run-walking while tagging me along with him.
Like what he said, we didn't waste our time here. We tried new rides, Rode our favorite rides, took a minute break then got back to having fun.
"Let's go there." He dragged me again but this time, to the souvenir shop.
We wander around, trying to find a cool and unique items to buy.
"Here, ma'am.. It looks good on you, plus, it's the best seller among couples." She gave me a matching bracelet with a half heart on each of it. "The heart has some magnet in it so when you put them a little close together, they automatically get attached." She explained further.
I smiled fakely while slowly giving it back to her. "But we're not cou--"
"Okay that's cool. We'll take it." Suddenly, he interrupted me and took the bracelets from me and went straight to the cashier.
I still got a little baffled by the situation and didn't move for seconds until he called my name and motioned me to go to him which I voluntarily did.
Right after we left the shop, I heard some grumbling noise which made me halt again.
Then I heard him chuckled. "Looks like we're going to eat next." He held my hand again and we started walking to a food park. We took some time choosing what food to eat until we find a perfect one for our taste buds. He paid for it again which I totally oppose at first but eventually just agreed after of his convincing.
We both took our time eating in silence but the atmosphere didn't get that awkward, we just don't feel like talking to each other while eating cuz we're both hungry as fuck.
After finishing his food, I can feel him looking at me which made me a little conscious so I stopped eating and looked at him. "Wae?"
"Hm? What wae?"
"Wae you staring at me?"
He chuckled. "Nothing. Is it bad to look at you?"
I didn't answer for few second then just gradually shake my head then resumed eating. Then he took my hand that's resting on the table, so I looked at him, confusedly...
Then, swiftly, puts the bracelet that we just bought from the souvenir shop. "Here... To prove that no matter what happens, I'll be there for you to complete your heart. Whenever you need me, I'll always be there for you." He smiled when suddenly I got so emotional with what he just said.
"Kookie..." I started off then he just looked at me. "Thanks for everything. For always being there for me at my worst to cheer me up, for helping me recover from those bad moments, for not leaving. Don't worry.. I'll also be here for you to complete your heart." I gave him a simple smile and held his hand.
It was a very long day for us but even if we're both exhausted, he still insisted of walking me home.
We stopped at my front door and we faced each other. "Thanks for today, Kookie. You really made me happy and forgot all the bad thoughts in my mind." I smiled at him.
"I'm glad that I helped." He smiled back and hugged me. "I gotta go now. We still have work tomorrow. We'll see each other again soon so don't miss me a lot. Thank you as well for today." He slowly pulls away and kisses my forehead. "Be safe and call me if you're scared or needed someone to talk to, okay?"
I nodded and smiled. "Ne. Now go. It's already late."
He nodded and slowly turned around and walked away.
I entered the house and went straight to my bedroom and flopped down on my bed, thinking about everything that has happened today. I didn't know that I've been smiling all along until I saw my reflection on my full length mirror beside my bed.
Because of all the events that had happened, it made me realized one thing...
I loved Namjoon.
