<<I never really understood being in a relationship or being in love. Maybe it is because I'm always being used or cheated on. Maybe it is because I have a hard time fully trusting anyone. Maybe it is because I have a problem ever fully falling in love. Over time in dating I have lost the true meaning of love, I am constantly expecting the worse. The is how my brain works now I wish I could be different but I can't. There is always that once chance that I get hurt so badly I will never be the same. Which is why I am always on high guard No matter the situation. I can't let anything slip in fear of being used again. Which is why I live life by a either you are with me or you are against me>>
