Slytherin bride (ON HOLD... will continue soon:) )

Recovery?

The next day I woke up in Draco's arms again. We were alone in my room so I'm guessing Pansy went over to sleep in one of to guys room so she wouldn't bother us. That's kind of nice of her.

''Hey...'' I said quietly to him seeing that he was half awake.

''Good morning beautiful'' he replied giving me a kiss. ''Sleep well?''

''Surprisingly yes, I didn't wake up once.''

''That's because I was here next to you'' he smirked.

''Tease all you want, but I think there's a bit of truth in that.''

''I couldn't be more happy to hear that. Now... get up, we have to go to breakfast and then to DADA.''

Today I was in a sort of a good mood. I was feeling better, but still not good enough. Who knows, maybe with Draco by my side again I'll have at least some sort of normal life. I was stupid to push him away like that. I think I was just scared, everything was too much for me and I needed an escape for a while, but I guess I don't do very well on my own

During DADA all I did was daydream and write in my diary. Yeah, I carry it around with me these days, I write in it a lot. As much as the last few weeks were, let's just say tough, this diary helped me a lot. It was sort of my escape, I wrote about my parents, Monaco, my friends, about Oliver, Draco, Hogwarts, pretty much everything.

Dear diary,

your little princess is getting better. Maybe I do have some Grace in me. Life is confusing, one day you hate him, one day you love him. What to do? When the times comes I guess the only choice I'll have is to do the right thing. For now I'll just go with it. Who knows, maybe he can make me feel normal again, if not, I know he'll at least try....

''What are you writing about?'' Draco's voice interrupted me. I was sitting next to him, not my usual seat, but I think he didn't want to leave me alone for one second.

''Stuff...'' I replied, ''it's my diary. And laugh all you want, but it helps me.''

''Why should I laugh?''

''Because diary is usually a stupid thing in which silly little 11 year old girls write.''

''So what? If it helps you there's nothing wrong in it.''

''Yeah, I guess there isn't...'' I replied with a small smile and continued to write.

...One thing I'm sure of, I miss Monaco less. Why? I don't know. Maybe 'cause my friends don't write so often, or maybe 'cause I never truly belonged there in the first place, or maybe I'm just getting soft... Once again, time will show.

All my love, Mia

Everything was going great 'till lunch. I wasn't much hungry, or maybe I've just gotten used to not eating, either way, Draco and the rest of the group were forcing me to eat as much as possible, and I just couldn't. But I was still in no mood to fight them so I just kept putting food in my mouth, even though it felt awful.

''Draco...what's our next class?''

''That big oaf, I still can't believe...'' he started but I cut him off.

''I'll meet you there, I need to go to the bathroom'' I informed them and quickly got up.

Luckily the first bathroom I walked in was empty. Now I don't know what made me to this, but the next thing I know I was standing over a toilet seat, shoving two fingers down my throat and letting all the food I just ate out. The second I did it I felt both relief and guilt. And the first thing I thought about was my parents. Wouldn't they be so proud if they could see their daughter right now, acting like a bulimic. How low can I sink? But as soon as I left the bathroom those thoughts were gone. I hurried outside for Hagrid's class. One more class I don't have to do a thing in, 'cause let's be honest, no one does anything in this class.