I Went Too Far.. (B.A.P. Zelo)

Ch.12: Forgiving him

"Wow, you eat so well now!" The teacher complimented me when we were at dinner on Monday. The whole weekend was good, talking to my new friends and all. I smiled at my teacher and continued to eat my ramen.

"I'm starting to eat well, too, right Miss?" Hwayoung asked, taking a bite of her cheeseburger.

"Yes, all four of you are starting to eat regularly. And I can see you girls are less stressed," The teacher complimented.

"Yeah, Miss Nam is an expert at relieving stress!" Sofie exclaimed. We nodded in agreement.

"Lauren, someone would like to see you again," An office aide informed me. I sighed and stood up.

"Maybe it's your parents?" Jannette asked.

"No, they came yesterday and said they'd come again on Wednesday morning," I replied.

"Maybe it's that Daehyun guy," Sofie said. I smiled.

"I hope it is," I replied. I walked to the guest rooms once again, and once again, Zelo was waiting for me, fiddling his fingers. He's attractive, he really is, but I have to remember that he once hated me, and I don't know if he still does.

I walked up to him with a blank face and he smiled brightly to see me.

"Hey," He greeted.

"Hi," I said with blank face. We sat down on one of the tables and he kept looking at me.

"What?" I asked.

"It's nothing .." He said, still looking at me. I looked at him weirdly and turned away.

"Anyways .. Have you thought over what I said?"

"Yes, and I'm not believing you."

"What will it take for you to believe me?"

"I don't know, what will it?"

"Lauren, seriously, what is necessary for you to notice how much I love you?" He asked impatiently. I looked at him in surprise and he cleared his throat looking away.

"Sorry .. I didn't mean to say that," He said.

"So it's not true?"

"No, I mean, it's true, but the thing is, uh-"

"It's fine, don't hurt yourself trying to make up something," I replied. He looked at me and sighed.

"It will take effort to have you .. But I'm determined to do everything possible," He said, looking into my eyes. I looked down at the floor. I couldn't believe this.

"Junhong, this is ridiculous," I told him. He looked up at me with a confused face.

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"That it's ridiculous, one day you hate me, and another you're saying you love me, what the heck! You confuse me, Choi Junhong!" I cried, grabbing my hair in frustration. I can't describe my feelings, how it feels to be in a situation like this.

"I never hated you .." He whispered. I looked at him with a glare, my eyes starting to get watery.

"But you made me feel like nothing .." I squeaked, remembering that empty feeling I had before. It feels terrible, it's the same feeling that wanted me to leave this world.

"I'm sorry I made you feel like nothing, especially when you are my everything," He apologized, looking down at the floor. I just sat there, looking at him.