Chapter 9: What's Going On

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Before you freak out Sabrina just listen to what I have to tell you first." I said as calmly as I could, she just nodded and sat there silently.

"I was gonna propose to her last year where we had first met. I was driving us up to our old high school, I do have to admit I did drink a little the night everything happened, it was pretty late that night so I was also a little tired. Aspen offered to drive us the rest of the way but I didn't let her cause she drank to but not as much as I did. We were driving and I feel asleep at the wheel and I ran a stoplight and crashed into a car but the most of the impact happened where Aspen was sitting. I was arrested for buzzed driving and underaged drinking. My only phone call was to Jonah, I told him everything and I asked him to check up on Aspen before coming to get me since he was old enough and pretended to be my older brother. I never told my family and neither did he."

I took a deep breathe and wiped some of the tears that rolled down my eyes away I looked down so Sabrina couldn't see and continued with the story. "When Jonah got me out he told me that Aspen was is critical care and since me and her mom were close and I told her that I wasn't the one driving so she could tell me how Aspen is doing. Her mom told me that she still hasn't woken up and her mom is thinking about pulling the plug on her cause it's just to much to watch her daughter suffer and the medical bills. I paid for the first few months anonymously of course, thinking she was gonna wake up but she didn't and Jonah said I needed to stop before her mom realizes that I was the one paying for it and I did. She's there cause of me and there's nothing I can do to help. I haven't even visited her since I got out and I'm afraid to." I told Sabrina I felt a pair of arms wrap around my body I look up and see Sabrina hugging me. I hug her back and I continue to cry in her arms. I was sad but I was also angry with myself because I hated being so vulnerable in front of people.

"Hey Jack I'm sorry about earlier do you mind if we.." I heard someone come in and me and Sabrina jump back from each other. I look to see that once again it was none other than Jonah.

"Jonah it's not what it looks like I promise, he was telling me something and started crying and I hugged him and he hugged me back I promise nothing happened." Sabrina said.

"I don't care Sabrina." He said and then looked at me, "I thought you to stay away from here Jack." He basically growled at me

"I did stay away from her, she came to me and you know what I refuse to push Sabrina away just because I fucked up once and you don't like it." I yelled back to him

"Not only did you fuck up Jack but you cost a girl her life for the past year. I know she's still in that hospital bed wasting her life away and guess what Jack you're the one the fucking put her there." He yelled a little louder to me

"I know and I beat myself up everyday because of it and I hate myself, I loved her Jonah and I know I messed up I will always love Aspen but I also moved on and I like Sabrina now. I know what your gonna say and no Sabrina isn't just some rebound, I've had my share of that after I found out what I did. I want something special with Sabrina." I said to him.

"Did you tell her everything?" He asked. I simply shook my head. "Well go on and tell her and remember I was there and I know everything." He said

I looked at Sabrina, "After I found out she was in the hospital and those months where Jonah told me to stop paying for her medical bills, I started doing drugs, drinking and sleeping around with girls to try to get my mind off of her. When I was high I felt amazing but after it was over I drank to forget and I slept with girls as a rebound."

"You're forgetting a big part of that story Jack." Joan cut in

"After the sleeping around drugs and drinking I had to go get professional help to deal with my depression, anxiety and the physical abuse I was causing myself." I said

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