Spencer Reid- Dilaudid

Chapter Twenty-One

**Sexual Warning**

"Not like you haven't seen it all before she shrugs and I start choking on the coffee in my mouth. I can't believe she said that. I shake my head lightly smiling and glance at the watch on my wrist realizing we're probably going to be late.

"We uh..." I cough lightly "We should get going now" I say avoiding talking any longer about this conversation as I'm already embarrassed enough. JJ heads out the door and I follow behind her locking the door after her. We walk in silence to work neither of us speaking, and if I'm being honest, I'm kind of glad because I wouldn't even know what to say at this point therefore I would rather not make a fool out of myself like every other day of my life.

Ten minutes later we arrive at the BAU and I take the stairs instead of the elevator, not avoiding JJ but avoiding awkward conversations between JJ and I. I've never had this problem with her, I was always able to talk to her about everything and anything. Maybe it was because she didn't know that I had feelings for her or maybe because she is my best friend and I'm scared that I may have just ruined that between us. I sigh walking to my desk getting ready to hop on a new case and act like everything is normal.

"Spencer, my office in ten." Hotch yells across from his office.

"ooo Reid is in trouble" Morgan calls and everyone else around me starts staring at me.

I glare at Morgan and mope my way to Hotch's office sitting outside already knowing where this conversation is going to go. I totally forgot that I skipped the appointment Hotch set up for me. With everything going on I didn't get a chance to make up an excuse for Hotch since liar is now on my list. I look up making eye contact with JJ who looks worried for me, I give her a small smile, letting her know I'm okay and go back to thinking about what I'm going to tell Hotch, but my mind won't stop replaying the events of last night.

"Kiss me" JJ whispers, and I slowly lean in feeling the soft texture of her lips on mine.

"JJ... wait" I say slowly pulling away realizing I probably shouldn't be kissing her as she is still a married woman.

"It's okay" she whispers kissing me again. She deepens the kiss and opens her mouth letting my tongue slip in, now moving in sync to each other, I move my hand lower down her back not really sure what else to do here. I mean I've watch romantic movies, but they obviously don't show what happens during the "love scenes", at least not the ones I've watched.

I've never actually been in bed with a girl let alone made love before. Do people even use the term "make love." Maybe I just have an old soul.

Just then JJ rolls on top of me and slowly starts to pull over her shirt revealing a black lace bra, intimidating me with her breasts. My hands immediately go to the back of her bra desperately unclipping her bra and letting it fall on my chest.

"Oopsie." I say while lifting my hands in the air making JJ laugh causing her to lean down and kiss me again. I flip her over so I'm on top and leave small trails of kisses down her neck listening to her soft moans. She starts to lift off my shirt throwing it off to the side 

"Oopsie" she says repeating the same words as me making me laugh.

"JJ are you sure about this? I've never done this before" I say breathing heavily still thinking that I'm imagining all of this.

"Spencer" Hotch says snapping me out of my thoughts by waving his hand in front of my face. I enter Hotch's office and shut the door behind me, not wanting my co-works to hear him yell at me.

"Sit" he says sounding angrier than I expected him to be.

"Look, if this is about me missing my - " appointment I was going to say but Hotch cuts me off before I get the chance.

"Why didn't you go Spencer? Do you know how hard it was for me to even get you in to see him? Then for you not even to go? Spencer I'm trying to help you and I can't help you if you don't try to help yourself." He says settling down.

"What if I just don't want to help myself." I whisper quietly

"Then I'm going to have to fire you."