Styles Fx

Even If You Can't See Me, I'm Here

Louis' POV

I can't believe I just kissed Harry. After Josh stormed out, I noticed everyone was looking at me. "Louis?" Anne asked looking at me confusedly. As I looked around the room, I noticed everyone looked a bit shocked at my words. Zayn however, looked a bit angry. It left me a bit confused but I just turned to Anne as she called my name again. Tears began to run down my face again and I just gave a small smile and quickly left the room. I don't know what came over me. I just told Harry I loved him and kissed him in front of everyone; including my fucking fiancé! Why would I do that?

As I made my way out of the hospital, I didn't see Josh anywhere. He had left me here. I kind of understand him. Well actually, I fully understand him. All these things adding up like this. I am starting to wish Harry had never come into my life again. Everything was going great. Now, my whole world is being turned upside down. I have to stay away from Harry or Josh will end up leaving me, unless he is already planning to. That is what I would do if the situation were reversed. Fuck! What am I saying. i know I can't stay away from Harry. Not now anyway.

I pulled out my phone and called an uber and waited in front of the hospital for them to arrive. I tried texting Josh to see what kind of mindset he was in before I went home. I am actually a bit afraid. Yeah, Josh has been rather kind to me during this whole "welcome back into my life Harry" episode, but he has been a bit distant and cold at times. I know that he knows I still have some feelings for Harry that have been brought up again. At the same time, I don't know what he is feeling exactly. We have never really talked about it these past weeks. I know he hates Harry for what he did to me and doesn't understand how I could welcome him back into my life so easily, but that is all. I also know he doesn't want me to be around Harry; especially now.

When the uber arrives, I hesitantly get in and give my address. Fifteen minutes later I was outside of our apartment. I see Josh's car parked outside, so I know he is here. I pay the driver and slowly exit the car. All kinds of thoughts are going through my head. I hope he is not angry, but who wouldn't be. I don't know what to expect when I open the door and it frightens me a little. I have never been afraid to be around Josh, until now. He is the love of my life and I am his. I hope I am still anyway. The sad thing is, he is not my only love. Josh is my heart and has taken care of me and helped me get to where I am now. Without him, I would probably be dead. He saved me and showed me life is worth living no matter how bad things are. Then, the man who caused it all is back and has slipped through a crack I let in the wall I built around his memory, and has found his way to my heart again. No, I am not in love with Harry but there are feelings there. Memories of us together are starting to come back. I need to get control of myself before something happens.

I finally enter the lift to get to our floor. When I finally get off on the 28th floor, it is like walking the green mile. My hands get clammy and I begin to sweat a bit. As I stick the key in the hole and unlock the door, I take a deep breath. Josh is not in the living room and I take a sigh in relief thinking I have time to catch my breath and calm my nerves a bit before I see him. I close the door and begin to make my way to the couch. Just then, Josh comes storming in the room with an unreadable expression on his face. He comes and stands in front of me and grabs me by both my shoulders in a tight grip, pulling me up from the couch. I am sure there will be bruising later. I look at him with fear in my eyes and he just yanks me forward into his chest. His eyes are dark and I can't figure what he is thinking.

"J-Josh, p-pl-please let me go," I say with a shaky voice. He doesn't. He only holds me tighter, staring into my eyes.

Harry's POV

I am just sitting here in this empty room for the next three months. It is a punishment of sorts for changing my mind and wanting to stay. After my guardian angel lead me through the door, I did not like what I saw. It was dark. Like, no light at all at first. Then as we walked a bit further, there was a faint glow off in the distance. It was kind of weird. It is like it was ghostly. I was afraid and hearing the moans and groans in the distance didn't help either. I turned away before I stepped over a long crack in the floor that I couldn't see the end of in either direction. It was like, it separated the side I was on from the unknown. As I turned away, I looked to my future self and said, "Please get me out of here. I changed my mind. I want to stay. Please." I was not above begging at this point. He turned to me and told me there would be consequences for returning after entering the afterlife, but I didn't care. All I knew was I did not want to step over this crack... EVER!