Styles Fx

A Time To Fight

Louis' POV

These past few weeks have been hard. Going through what I did and then what I went through in the hospital was enough to nearly drive me mad. I had started to have really bad nightmares and Harry was always there to comfort me, but it was not enough. The doctor suggested that I see a therapist. I declined that and decided to join a peer group for domestic abuse. It has really helped me a lot hearing stories from others and it was comforting to know that I was not alone. I had met a new friend there named Thomas. He was a very sweet guy. He had blond hair that was slightly curly. It came down just past his ears. His eyes were grey and so, so beautiful. He was much taller than I was. He was maybe around six feet. When we first met, we hit it off instantly.

That was two weeks ago. We have spent a lot of time together since then. I have not been able to go back to filming with the movie yet because of the bruising on my body. The skin on my back has been healing well, but it is still very tender. Everything else is mostly okay though. I had invited him over for the first time about a week ago. We watched movies and cuddled a bit. I was expecting it to be just a friendly time, but before I knew it we were kissing. I felt a bit uncomfortable at first, but there seemed to be something comforting in his kiss and I melted a bit. Apparently, this wasn't sitting too well with Harry. I could hear him sighing and the big gasp he took as Thomas laid me back on the couch. However, I couldn't bring myself to stop him. I needed this. I had been feeling so low and I know this was fast. I knew I wouldn't sleep with him, but what was wrong with getting off with a beautiful man without shedding my clothes.

Thomas began grinding his hips down on me and it felt so good. I just needed to be lost in this feeling and forget about everything that has happened; even if only for a little while. Thomas began to kiss down my neck and he eventually found my sweet spot. He had me moaning and squirming around on the chair. It just felt so good. I knew Harry may be hurting but he wasn't here. I feel so alone even with Harry. Having Thomas here with me right now is what I need. He is a good distraction from the chaos that is my life right now.

As I feel my orgasm growing, Thomas begins to grind down harder on me and I can tell he is close as well. The heat pooling in my stomach feels so intense and my body begins to shake. Before I realize it, Thomas has reached his high and is grinding me through his orgasm. Then he begin to palm me through my joggers. It feels so good. He begins to kiss me and not a minute later I reach my high. We both are breathing heavily and staring at each other.

"That was amazing and unexpected," Thomas says and I have to nod my head in agreement. "I hadn't expected that this is where this evening would end up, but I can't say I didn't enjoy it," I added on. As we decide to cuddle up and finish the last part of the movie, I can feel Thomas staring at me intently. I want to look at him but I am afraid of what might happen. I mean, I just let him get me off and I have only known him for two weeks. I know it was just a spur of the moment thing and I have no intention of going any further, but I don't know what he is thinking. After a few minutes I decide to just glance over to him and I wish I hadn't. He is looking at me with a look that reminded me so much of Josh. It is really making me afraid.

I cleared my throat a bit with a cough and asked, "What?" He just stared at me a moment before he said, "You are so beautiful, Lou. I wish you would let me take you out sometime." I went a bit wide eyed because I was completely stunned. We both have supposedly come out of an abusive relationship and he is asking me out? I can't do this yet. I am not ready. That is exactly what I told Thomas. He said he understood and he would wait until I was ready. After that, he said he was going to go because it was getting a bit late. I agreed and got up to walk with him to the door. He kissed my cheek and said goodnight. I pulled him into a hug and said goodnight as well.

After Thomas left, I went to run myself a nice hot bath. My back was a bit sore and I knew this would help. I put in some bubbling oil and added in my favorite bath bomb. It smelled like lavender and vanilla. I grabbed my big fluffy towel and went back to the bathroom. I was feeling a bit sticky from the events earlier. Thinking back on it now, I do regret it. Not because I didn't enjoy it, but because of Harry. I know he could hear and see everything. Although it is not my fault, I could have at least considered his feelings. He has told me how much he still loved me and how he would be here for me. He has been nothing but great to me since all this happened. He comforts me so well. His strong invisible hands rub my back and through my hair so gently. The soft brushes on my cheek and all the comforting words of love he whispers to me when I cry. If it was not for him, I think I would not have made it this far. Yes group has been great and so has Thomas for the most part, but without Harry in the mix, I would still be lost.