Feel Me [Jelena story]

Chapter 15

                   Selena's P. O. V

I watched the sun goes down, I'm laying in the grass of the park. My mind is still full of thoughts, I want to cry and cry right now. My life is so dramatic full of stupid drama that I wanted to skip.

I sit down and the sky is getting dark, it can also seen that it going to rain. But I don't care, the the water that flowing in the river is the only noise you can hear.

I stand up and take a slow walk way to my home. I feel something cold that touched my forehead. I look up and it's rain starting to fall. But I still taking a small step, my head is aches.

Many stop coming out in my mind, Iw ant to relieve them. Now I started to cry, I hold my hair like my hair going to lose in my scalp. I look loke a crazy teenager walking through tge rain and yelling.

I reach the bridge,a bridge fo the river that flow way to the park. The rain is getting more heavy as my mind getting to burst.

I can't think straight,all of the problems mixed in my mind. I calm my heart and take a deep breath.

I step on the wall of the to jump in the river.I look around if there is someone, but no one. No one can stop me now.

"I WANT TO DIEEE!! "I yell in all my forced,I feel like my throat in dry.

I'm crying right now, I'm taking one step to jump.

"MY LIFE IS WORTHLESS!!! "I yell once more and this time,I'm about to jump when someone hug my waist and lift me on the wall.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!!Who are you?! Why the fvck did you stop me?!" I keep kicking and yelling.I can't see clearly the person who grab me,but ai know his a guy.

My vision is blured because of tears and the rain. My clothes are wet, and so do my body. He open the door car and put my in passenger seat.

"Let me go!!!" before he could put me I kick him in his knee,she drop me hard in the sit because of my kick.

"What the heck!?" I hear his voiced as he closed the door behind him. I look at him while he walking way to other side,he is Justin.Why is he doing it to me? I look down because of embarrassed.

He is also wet by the rain,he enter in the drive seat. He look at me but I look down. My feeling is mixed I'm angry on him because of not letting me to jump and embarrassed and more.

"Why did you stop me?" I finally found a word that I wanted to say.

He glanced at me then he back his attention in his wet hair "Why would I let you do that?"

I sigh and say "That doesn't answer my question"

"Because I don't want to see a person who kill themselves" he reply shortly.

"It's not your life,it's my life!I can do whatever I want!" I yell to let my anger I felt nothing this time.

"What the hell are you saying?!If you were in my situation you saw a girl or boy,whatever is thier gender and you  saw them wanting to jump or kill themselves,you probably go out and help them!!!" he yell but this I started to cry not because he yell at me,because I felt nothing.I feel alone in this world.

The silence surround in the car while he was driven me to my home.

He stop the car in front of my house.He sigh and finally spoke "I know it's hard in your situation,if that happen to me I think I might do things I should not.But I won't do things that you did,committing suicide is not the answer in your problem. I better create my own future without them"Then he stop I didn't reply instead I sob. My head is achen,I feel so cold.

I did not moved in my sit, he get out in his car and open the door beside me. I glanced at him,luckily the rain stop.

He hold my hand to guide me out "Selena your so hot"he say in a panicked tone.

"Wow, this is the first time I hear a guy told me that word. "I chuckled amd he looked at me serious.

"No, what I mean is your temperature is high. You got a fever!"we enter the livibg room and I feel dizzy my head hurt so much.

"Don't worry about me, go to your home now. For sure your mom waiting for you"I say and lay my head on the couch.

"What?! I can't leave you,you had a bad fever."He stand in front of me, but I can't see him clearly.

"If you didn't stop me earlier, I shouldn't suffering in this stupid fever"I put my palm in my forehead.

"Don't start again Selena"He say and walk toward the door.

"I'll be back, don't try to kill yourself here."He warned me and closed the door.

I stand up and I was walking like a crazy girl. I walk upstairs and go to my room,I changed my clothes.I feel dizzy and cold but I still managed to changed my clothes,my head hurt really bad I jump on my bed and sleep.

I open my eyes cause I feel I cold cloth in my forehead. I saw Justin sitting right beside me putting a cloth on my forehead.

"What are you doing here?"I adjust the cloth in my forehead.

"Taking care of you"He reply quickly.

"You shouldn't be here, what about your girrfriend?Only you? "I ask and closed my eyes.

"Don't think about her, she won'tbe mad at me. Taylor and Ariana is here earlier, I ask them to go here and tell me what to do with you"I smile and my eyes still closed my body us resting in my bed.

"Thank you, how about your mother? "I ask and open my eyes lightly.

"She knows and it's okay to her"I can him smile,tge more his getting close to me my feelings grows deeper.

"Thank you, Justin you can leave now. "I say trting to push him away.

"What? I won't unless your alright now"He stand up and came colse to me.

"Don't worry I'm fine right now, you can go now and take a rest. Thanks for everything"I smile and he nodds.

"Call me if you needed something"He say before closing the door.

I smile because of how he treating me, I feel like special. I know he is just concern to me, because I was one of his  friend. I hope I wasn't just his friend, I wish I was his girlfriend.

I closed my eyes and I can feel to myself that I'm feeling better than earlier. I take a sleep and rest my self,since my father wasn't here to take care to me.