Feel Me [Jelena story]

Chapter 16

                        Selena's P. O. V

One week passed since I committed suicide and only one week left then I can finally go back to school. I was walking on the street feeling amazing today, I'm thinking to my problems. And it feels great,I'm so grateful for having Justin in my life. Not because I like him but because he is so caring.

I remember my question to myself
         "Why did I fall in Justin? "

Now finally my question is answered,I fall because something about him that makes me love him even more. He got a kind heart, but he is not showed. If everyone could focused on him, they know who's the real Justin.

I love him even more, he the boy that I wanted in my life. Almost everything that I wanted in a boy is all in him. I think his perfect, his beautiful face fits perfectly in his heart.

I wonder what's happening to him right now, I didn't seen him since he go in my house. The last time I talk to him is when he called me if I was feel better.

I saw Zayn walking towards me.Zayn Malik is my ultimate crush when I was in elementary, but when he know that I like him he just ignore me. He go further away from me that's why I was hiding my feelings.

He stop and smile at me "Hey selena! How are you? "I smile.

"I'm fine, what are you doing here? "I ask and stop in my place to have a conversation with him.

"Just walking,I didn't go to school cause it's a little boring. Sometimes you need to relaxed"He say and it went a silence.

"Selena? "Hi s voice is serious.

"Yeah? "I look at him and his faced change into a serious.

He look like a boy whose lookin'a word to say "Selena, I'm here to look for you.I want to apologize in everyth--- I cut him "Zayn you don't have to come here in New York just to ask sorry on me,I understand why you do that to me. And honestly it hurts,I thought you like me too but I was wrong. Don't worry we were just in elementary when that happen, now I'm moving on"I say and he look down.

"That's not what I mean Selena, Selena when you transfer here. I realize that avoiding you is just making my life ruin. I realized that I need you"He say in a low tone and I had no idea what his talking about.

I'm confused really confused "What do you mean? I don't understand you"I ask and he looks at me.

"I like you selena"He say and I was shocked.

"What?! Sorry I don't understand"I say.

"What language do I need to speak so that you can understand what I'm saying? "He chuckles and I feel like my heart sink.

"You like me? How?"I ask and he look again at me.

"When you lift our country and your parents decided you to tranfer here,I realized that I miss you and I need you.Do you still love me? "He say and I had no words to say I still like him but I loved Justin now.

"I don't know Zayn, maybe we can talk about it in other day"I say and I was serious he nodd.

"I don't want to pressure you Selena"He say and I nodd and walk passed him.

As I walk through the street, his words can't get out in my mind. Walking way to the park,that's my favorite place to relaxed and cler my mind.

I was sitting on the bench and I spotted a boy,no one other Justin Bieber. My heart start to beat rapidly,I can't control my nerves,now I felt nervous.What is he doing here? He supposed in the school in this hour.

I walk in his direction,trying to had a friendly conversation. I clear my throat to caught his attention.

"Hey Selena!"He waved at me,and my heart squeeze.

I gave him a small smile and I stand next to him,while he was sitting on the grass.

"Sit down, next to me"He say and I sit next to him.

"So...What are you doing here?"I ask and he did not reply,his smile earlier is now fading. His staring in the river that flowing,slowly.

"Is there anything wrong? Why are you here?Your supposed in our school in this hour... "I say in a low tone,something in his mind bother.He seem had a problem.

"I skip the school today, I want to clear my mind and think a right decision.This is the place where I go when I need to think or relaxed.This is the only place I can breath clearly"He say and I can see in his eyes is full of pain.
I'm worry about him, what is he saying a right decision?I want to know.

"What do you mean with your 'right decision'? "I turn to face him, I was surprised when he was looking at me. Staring at me,now were face to face. I can't say anything when he was looking at me.

"You don't need to know Selena"He say and I can feel his breath hitted my cheek, were so closed.

So closed his is leaning to kiss me, and to be honest I'm not going to angry to him like last week like when he was trying to kiss me.His leaning to kiss me and now I can feel his lips on me.He is kissing me right now,my heart is beating so fast like a racing car.

Just when I about to kiss back he pull away,he didn't look at me. What did he do? Why did he pull away?

He saying some words but I didn't hear him. I was busy thinking about the kiss. I stare at his lips, I finally taste those lips that I wanted to kiss.I finally feel what's his lips taste.

I finally experience waht I saw in the movie, this is first time. I had a first 'first kiss' and it was from my crush. A crush that he never know that I love him. I can't explain what the feeling inside, I want to scream 'My first kiss from my Love, but he never know that I love him!' I want to jump in happiness,those lips that I've been dreaming,and now I finally feel.

"Selena?Are you okay?"He interrupted my thoughts he was waving his palm in front of me to caught my attention.

"Uh-huh, Yeah I was fine."I'm little embarrassed maybe he think that I like that kiss. But I don't want him to assume or know what my feelings about him.

"I'm sorry earlier"He say.

"For what?"I'm run out of words, and why did I just let that stupid question out of my mind.

"The kiss"He reply and I just gave him a light nodd.