Feel Me [Jelena story]

Chapter 4

June 2008

(first day in sophomore)

Another month and year for study.I was walking on the street with my headphone in my ear.Enjoying the cold air that hit in my face.

I don't eat breakfast today,me and my mom fight.I don't understand her,she's angry with my father but all of the anger for him she gave it to me all.She find a way just to me and she fight.She told me about my father that my father got a mistress.She told me that if I stress her she gonna leave me,me and my father she gonna take gracie with her.

What am I gonna do with my life?without her and gracie?I inturrupted with a loud horn of the car coming from back.I step in the side of the street and look at the car pass in front of me that's so close,thankfully I didn't crash with that stupid car.

I sigh and look around if someone but no one.

"What the fvck is wrong with people?!"I shout just to let go heavy feeling in my chest.

I take a minute to sit in the side of the street.I hug my knees and lay my head on.A tears fall in my eyes,why do I born just to be like this?My mom keep blamong all the problem that happen in our family.I want to die,everything is hard to fix.The love and sweetness in our family has fade everything change.

I've been crying in a minute here,I remember I got a school today.I'm going to be late,I stand up and fix myself a little.I wipe the tears in my eyes,and brush my hair.And I start to walk faster I reach the school.

No students outside for sure the class in started.I take a time to go to restroom of the girl,I look at the mirror to check my eyes.It's red,it's so embarrassing I can't come inside the class my eyes look like this.

I walk in the hallway while looking at the floor.Where's my room?I've been looking in a minute and I found it.I hope taylor and ariana are my classmate.

I'm late for sure all they're attention will be on me.I enter the room and luckily our teacher is outside.I look for an empty chair and take a sit they didn't see me because they all busy talking to each other.

Where is taylor and ariana?I look around and I spot them,taylor is busy talking with a boy.For sure it's harry wow she's lucky they are classmate.I lay head on the desk to take a rest.

"Hey!"someone tap my back and I recognized his voiced.I look at him,and it was justin.Myghad why are we in the same room?I blink my eyes twice I wasn't dreaming.

This is so ugh!His eyes hazel eyes.I don't want to look at him.

"He-hey!it's you ju-justin!"i try to speak confidence,why I'm nervous?his just a normal person but why am I acting like this my palm is sweating my heart start to beat rapidly.

"Are you ok?"he ask me.His concern to me,why does he like me?Fvck stupid selena what are you thinking stop stop!

"Uh- Yeah I'm alright don't mind me"i forced my smile and avoid to look at him.I didn't know he sit next to me.Time pass but I can't concentrate because of Justin.

The bell rang it means our snack time.I go with taylor and ariana.We in cafeteria.

"Guys?I had a question but please be honest with your answer ok?"we sit in the small round table that fit in four person.

"You already asking"tay said jokingly.

"Don't be silly tay,I'm serious"i glare at her a little.

"Ok what is it selly bear?"ariana giggle.

"When you see a person,one person and you felt nervous whenever his around and talking to you,what's the meaning of that?"they look at each other and look at me.