Inevitable

Chapter (5)

"The driver took Zeynep at the evening. The place wasn't far away from the city but it was an hour drive. Zeynep was nump. She wasn't feeling anything. She arrived at Emir's house and stood in front of the door.

(What am I doing?) She thought. (You are doing what's necessary to save your family).
(but, I'm disown them even more like that. I'm betraying Kemal again)
(but, you'll save tariq).

Her inner thoughts were clashing. She was at a war with herself not knowing  if she was doing the right thing. Of course it wasn't right. But it was her only choice. But what should she do now? knock on the door or turn around and leave? Her inner war was cut short by Emir opening the door for her. It was to late now. Her fate was sealed. There's no turning back.
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Emir looked at her from top to buttom. She was wearing a simple white dress under her coat.

He didn't Know why he had made this offer. For him she was just an insect. Nothing. He used her and threw her away. So why does he want her again? His inner voice told him that he was just doing it to screw over Kemal. And she's going to be his victory gift tonight. That was to harsh and cruel. But this what Emir Kozanoğlu is.

Emir invited Zeynep inside and offered her something to drink.

"I don't want anything to drink Emir. Let's just get this over with"

"Patient enough?" Emir said sarcastically and Zeynep glared at him looking at him with disgust.

"But you're right. Let's get this over with shall we? The bedroom is in this way"

Both got into the bed room. Zeynep didn't pay attention to the details. She was nump and disconnected.

Emir approached her taking a strand of hair between his fingers and inhaled it. Zeynep's hand were clutched into a fist by her sides. Not moving just looking forward. Emir took off her jacked revealing her white dress.

He couldn't wait anymore so he took the zipper down pushing the dress to the floor. He kissed her shoulders and neck then suddenly stopped. This wasn't supposed to be a romantic night. No kisses and tender touches.There is no game here. Everything was on the open. Both knew what this thing was. And they'll treat it as such.

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Emir offered to drive her home instead of the driver. They hadn't spoken a word the whole way back.

The tension was blazing. They felt so awkward. This night changed something in them and none of them wanted to dwell on it. They had a deal and both took what they wanted. That's it.

Emir went back home completely disorinted. No women has ever been able to make him feel what Zeynep does. He knew Zeynep was special the moment he met her. At the beginning he planned to use her to distract Ozan but later seeing Ozan's constantly fusing over her he wanted her. But he couldn't have her inless he played dirty. He would hit two birds in one stone. Fulfill his desire and destroy Kemal at the same time. And tonight he fulfilled his desire again. But he wasn't feeling victorious. He felt weird but he won't have to see her again, it's over.

Mission accomplished.

Now he'll go back mooning over Nihan as usual.

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The next day Zeynep and her mother were standing in front of the police station. The lawyer called them earlier that morning telling them that Emir dropped the complaint and Tariq is free now.

Fahima and Tariq were so worry and surprised but they thought that maybe Nihan had something to do with it.

Tariq was out and their father's health was getting better. Zeynep was so happy for her family but completely broken from the inside.

She couldn't get that night out of her head. The night she gave herself to Emir again after all he had done. At least she knew that it didn't mean anything. It wasn't like their first time. It was hot and rough. Emir took and took and she couldn't do anything but give. With every moment passed something broke inside her.

She thought that her first time with Emir and the way he treated her afterwards was the worst moment in her life. But No. It was nothing compared to this. Because it wasn't just because she had felt completely humiliated. She also, part of her actually enjoyed it. And Emir was aware of that. She still had feelings for him and for that she hated herself and him so much.

Because Emir Kozcuoglu has won in this war and she kind of helped him to do that.

How can she survive this sin. This guilt that eating her away every time she remembers that Kemal is in prison because of her. Because she was weak and helpless. What's going to happen next. How can she fix this while she knows very well that it's not possible anymore.