Inevitable

Chapter (44)

The next day Emir woke up having a massive headache. He took a shower and went down stairs to have breakfast. Emir's mother was sitting waiting for him.

"Good morning son. How are you feeling?"

"I'm great mother, and hungry"
Emir sat and ate his breakfast silently.

"You are going to the holding son?"

"Yes, where else I would be?" Emir replied shortly.

"You won't tell me what happened yesterday?"

"No" Emir suddenly stood up, said goodbye and left. Müjgan knows how much her son is stubborn and thick headed. She knows that she can't break his walls. Maybe Zeynep will be easier. She's definitely going to talk to her today.

Zeynep's condition wasn't better. She did her usual morning routine. Trying To ignore her heart ache every time Poyraz mentions his father. Zeynep left Poyraz with Pelin and went to the cafe. She thought to busy herself with work maybe that will help her forget her pain. Emir was going to visit them tonight and she was dreading the moment. She didn't know who is she suppose to act around him. Maybe he was right. She shouldn't have let her feelings for him float to the surface. She should have kept him locked in her heart since that night in his summer house years ago. But it was too late now. She loved him and she wasn't sure if he felt the same way. Apparently the curse of this karasevda is going to follow her,  her entire life.

Zeynep was talking to one of her employees, when she saw Emir's mother enter the cafe.

They sat on one of the private tables in the café and was drinking coffee.

"I don't know what happened between you and Emir but from his depressed state yesterday I understood that it was something serious"

Zeynep lowered her head trying to control her tears.

"I don't know what to say.. I.... I think he was hurt by something I said and he had a bad reaction about it"

"Did you apologize to him at least?"

"No, I mean I didn't see it necessary. He hurt me too. And disrespected me in front of the whole cafe. I don't understand why he put all the blame me. He did a mistake too" Zeynep said all that, feeling her buried frustration come out to the surface.

"Listen to me daughter. Emir is a complicated man. You already know that. He lived a hard childhood with a heartless father. And then the whole Nihan thing. I think all this shook him from the inside. Because of me and his father and Nihan he thinks that he's not a loveable person. And because of that he did very terrible things to make others despise him even more. This, you and Poyraz changed the game for him. He's scared. He's scared of loving someone or letting someone love him. He needs to trust and leap. He needs some stability in his life and you Zeynep is the only one who can give him that. Please don't give up on him"

"Müjgan hanim. I think it's too late. He made it clear that we can only be Poyraz's parents. Nothing more" "And what about you? What do you think? Do you want that kind of relationship with him or you want more?"

Zeynep lowered her head again and ket a tear fall down her face. Then she looked at Müjgan. "I love him.. I love him so much?"

"I know" Müjgan said smiling softly. Zeynep looked at her with confusion.

"Y.. you know?"

"Yes. I know. The tears you're shedding now tells me everything. Guess what? I think he loves you too"
Zeynep looked at her with shocked expression. Emir loved her too?? Is that possible??.

Müjgan put her hand over Zeynep's and said softly.
"Don't wait for Emir to say it first or come at your door with an apology and a confession. Because this not who he is. But you can do that. Don't give up on yourselves. Don't waste what you have because you're so proud or stubborn to take the first step"

"What if Emir didn't want it? What if he doesn't have the same feeling? What will happen then?"

"Don't think about the (what ifs). Just take a leap of fathe and jump"

"What if I jumped and hit the ground"

"What if he caught you before you hit the ground? I think it's worth the try"
Zeynep chuckled.

"Then I'll try" Zeynep said with determination.

"That's my girl" Müjgan replied happily and both ladies smiled softly at eachother.

Müjgan left and Zeynep stayed thinking about what the old lady said. Zeynep wasn't the kind of woman who doubts herself. She's strong and fearless. And she loves Emir. So, she's going to have what she loves, consequence be damned.

Emir said that he'll come this evening to see Poyraz. Zeynep checked her watch and stood quickly. She has alot of things to do before he arrives.