Regretting You||E.D. fanfic

III

RECAP: Ethan and Alyssa were at the place where they first kissed and something was about to happen...

Alyssa's POV:

He grabs my head and pushes his lips on mine.

OH MY GOD WHAT AM I DOING.

Um, you're kissing your ex.

OH SHUT UP SUBCONSCIOUS.

I shake my head and pull away.

"Ethan, we can't do this. I wasn't even supposed to kiss you!" I groan.

"What do you mean 'you weren't supposed to kiss me'?" He asks confused.

"I mean, we shouldn't have kissed." I say faintly.

"No, you said you weren't supposed to. Why?"

"I didn't mean that, Ethan."

"Yes you did. Now tell me why you said that."

"Ethan, I said I didn't mean it. Just let it go." I say and start walking to the car.

"Alyssa, just tell me why-"

"BECAUSE I CAN'T FALL FOR YOU!" I yell as I turn around.

"WHY?!" He yells back.

"Because I don't want to get hurt again... the last time was too much." I say quietly. I look down at the floor and a tear falls. I see his feet walk towards me and I turn away from him.

"Hey, look at me." He slowly turns me around and I still look down. He lifts my chin up and smiles.

"I promise you I won't hurt you again. I couldn't do it anyways, even if I wanted to. It would kill me." I slightly smile and sit on the floor.

"Come on, explain. I need to know everything before I can truly trust you." He sits down and sighs. There was a silence for about a minute.

"Why'd you do it..." I say slowly.

"I didn't want to. I never wanted to hurt you." He sighs. I look at him and roll my eyes.

"But that's what you did, Ethan." I say.

"I realize that but please just hear me out." I nod and focus on him.

As he's talking, I can't help but look at his facial features. For example, his hazel eyes that can figure out everything about you, his smile that makes me smile, his laugh that makes everyone la-

ALYSSA STOP IT. PAY ATTENTION TO HI-

My thoughts were interrupted by something strange that he had said.

"Excuse me, repeat what you just said." I ask confused.

"I said that this girl was forcing me to have sex with her everyday. All those times I couldn't hang out with you and all the times I missed our dates, it was because of her forcing me to have sex with her. I know that it sounds like I'm lying but-"

"Ethan, I believe you." I shyly smile.

"What?" He asks in shock.

"I said I believe you. I had gone to your house because you called and then I walked in on you two and that's why I was balling my eyes out to Grayson. You didn't have to come to my house afterwards and tell me, but you did because you knew that once you had told me, you would have to say goodbye." He stayed silent.

"You risked me seeing you because you wanted me to know, didn't you?" He continues being quiet.

"You were tired of the sneaking around, the lies, and all of the times you ignored me, that you decide to call me when she was there so I would go to your house and see what was happening. It was on purpose... or am I wrong." He sighs and I see a tear fall down his face.

My poor bab-

NO NO NO

"You're right. I need you to see because I couldn't take it anymore. You never let me explain and I felt so much guilt. I'm sorry I put you through so much pain." He says as we get up to head to the car.

"I realize that you didn't want to and I completely understand, but it doesn't mean I forgive you." I say as I open the driver door.

"I know, don't worry." He smiles and I start the car. We drive off and I head to his apartment first.

Most of the car ride is silent but I turn on the radio so it's not as awkward. I continue focusing on the road think I feel a hand on my thigh. I look down and look to him. I shift a bit and nothing. He's still lookin out the window.

We arrive to the building and I walk him up to his apartment. We step in front of the door and he grabs my hand.

"I don't want to push you, but just think about everything. You let me know when you're ready. I'll be waiting. Take all the time you need." Ethan smiles.

"I will. I just need some time. That was a lot to take in, but I'll let you know." He nods his head and I smile. He let's go of my hand and hugs me.

"Goodnight Alyssa. Hope you don't mind I'm hugging you." He chuckles.

"I don't mind at all. Haven't had a good hug in a while." I laugh and he smiles. He waves and goes inside.

I go back to my car and sigh.

"What did I just do tonight?" I laugh. I start the car and drive back home. Once I get to the apartment, I lock the door and drop myself onto the couch.

"UGHHH." I say, muffled into a pillow.

"What's with you? Did the dinner go bad?" Peyton laughs.

"No, but I'm confused." I say, still with my face in the pillow.

"Elaborate!!" She pushes me and I sit up.

"It's a lot. Are you sure you want-"

"JUST EXPLAIN ALREADY." She yells and I laugh.

After I explain, she looks at me with the most confused but happy face ever.

"Why are you smiling?" I ask.

"You're blushing." She giggles.

"No I'm not." I roll my eyes.

"Yes you are!" She laughs and shows me. I sit there and sigh.

"Ugh this is so confusing though!" I groan.

"I know, don't worry." She pats my thigh and we sit there for a good minute in silence.

Oh my god what am I doing.

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This is only the start for the book. Next chapter will be short (maybe) but I think you'll like it or you'll hate me. Till next Tuesday! PEACE💜 Also, I have posted this chapter because someone is impatient🙄♥️