Regretting You||E.D. fanfic

IX

song: better off by ariana grande

Grayson's POV:

Since I found out Alyssa and I have been feeling the same things, as much as she doesn't want to admit it, we decided to go on the ferris wheel.

"Hey, I'm gonna go to the bathroom. Be right back!" Ethan says as he runs off.

"So since we are one couple away from the ride, who is gonna go with who?" Alyssa asks.

"You two go. I'll wait for Ethan." Peyton smiles.

"Are you sure, P? You can go wi-"

"I'll be fine, Alyssa. Just go with Grayson." Peyton says with her teeth clenched and her eyes wide.

"Okay..." Alyssa says quietly.

"Hey, you don't hav-"

"Grayson, it's fine. I'll go with you." She smiles widely. I smile back and stick out my hand. I make a stupid face and she laughs. We turn around and Peyton's laughing.

Alyssa and I get on the wheel and the doors close. The wheel slowly moves as I get comfortable. I look over at Alyssa and she's looking out the window.

I look away and do the same as her. The silence is interrupted when I hear a sigh. I turn my head and she's looking down at the floor.

"What do you think I should do, Gray?" She says as she slowly looks at me.

"Well, if it were me," I say as I slowly scoot closer to her.

"I would talk to him and see what's up. But, I know you and that's not something you do automatically. So, I suggest you listen to your heart." I give her a straight face and she sighs, again.

"Now, what's it telling you?" I ask.

"My heart's telling me to stay and wait to see what happens..." She says sadly.

"Now, what's your mind telling you?" I say as I get closer to where there's only two inches of space between us.

"My mind is telling me... it's telling me I'm better off with out him. I mean, I've always had my doubts since I had dinner with him. Turns out, one was already going on and I think I have another one." She says as she lifts her head up from the floor. She looks at me with sad eyes and I put my hand on her shoulder.

Is this ferris wheel moving really slow or is it just me?

She grabs my hand and holds onto it tightly. I feel her shakily breath in and that's when I know what she's thinking.

"I swear, my love is a curse." She says as she breaks down in tears.

"Shh. It's gonna be okay." I say as I pull her into my chest. She wraps her arms around me and I rub her back. She cries in my chest and all I can do is hold her. She sits up and wipes her eyes.

"Grayson, if I'm being honest, I don't even know what to do. Ethan hurt me. That's in the past, but there's just little things that lead me to think he just wants to use me. I never let him know too much, but I love him. AND IT HURTS." She groans.

"All of these things are happening too fast and it's all just going to tumble down at some point. Promise me something."

"Anything, Lys." I say as I move a hair behind her ear and her eyes follow.

"Promise me you'll always be beside me. Through anything at anytime. Please." She begs as she grabs my hand. She looks down and sighs.

"I promise you. I'm always here." I say as I lift up her chin and shyly smile.

We stay there a moment and I remove my hand. As I do, she grabs my hand and I turn to her. She looks at me and she looks at my face with a worried look.

She leans towards me and our foreheads touch.

"I shouldn't be doing this..." She whispers. I look at her confused, until I feel her lips on mine. It took me a moment but I soon kiss back.

The kiss was slow and maybe even... passionate.

I put my hand on her cheek and we kiss a little longer. We pull away and realize we almost are at the end of the ride. She fixes her hair and acts like nothing happened.

She puts her hand on the bench and I put my hand on top. She turns her head and looks down at our hands. She looks back up and shyly smiles.

The ride stops and we move our hands. We get out and wait for Ethan and Peyton. We stand there and look at each other. We stay like that until we hear laughing.

"Hey guys! Did you have fun?!" Ethan asks as he slides his arm around Alyssa.

Woah, she looks so uncomfortable.

"Yeah, we talked a lot." I say and Alyssa blushes. Peyton tilts her head and Alyssa shakes her head.

How is Ethan so clueless?

"Well, let's go do some more stuff!!" Ethan suggests and he runs off. Peyton follows behind him and I walk. I turn around and I see Lys with her arms on her chest, head hanging low. I frown and jog to her. I wrap my arm around her shoulders and she looks up. She gives me a pained smile and I smile back.

I am so sorry that you're in pain...

Me too, subconscious. Me too.

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Alyssa's POV:

LET ME JUST SAY. THAT KISS WAS GREAT.

Shut it, subconscious.

Just saying!

WE GET IT.

Obviously, there's somewhat of tension...

SHUT IT.

We get off the wheel and stand by the cotton candy. As we're waiting for Peyton and Ethan, I have a sudden urge to look at Grayson. To my surprise, he does the same.

"Hey guys! Did you have fun?!" Ethan says and he wraps his arm around my waist.

"Y-"

"Yeah, we talked a lot." Grayson says and he rocks on his tiptoes with his hands in his pockets. Peyton tilted her head at me and I shook my head with wide eyes.

I look down and just wait to hear what we do next.

"Well, let's go do more stuff!" Ethan says as he runs off. Peyton runs off, not staying behind to ask what happened or if I'm even okay. Grayson walks off and I sigh. I slowly walk behind and cross my arms onto my chest.

As I'm walking, I feel footsteps jog towards me. I keep my eyes on the floor and feel an arm go over my shoulders. I look up and slightly smile. Grayson returns the favor with a wide smile.

I don't even know what I'm doing at this point...

What do I even do?!

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Well, many may be PISSED. Some things are meant to happen. Just go with it and you'll see what happens. see you soon;) also hope some of you caught the Ariana lyrics!