Regretting You||E.D. fanfic

XXXI

song: hard by why don't we

Alyssa's POV:

We head to Ethan's and lock the door. We head to his bedroom and I go start the shower for him.

"Babe, I don't-"

"You're taking a shower." I nod. He sighs and grabs his clothes. He gets inside and puts his stuff down, but before he closes the door, he pulls me inside.

"Ethan, you need to take a shower by yourself. I'm not going in." He nods and gives me a looooong kiss.

"I know, but please stay in here. I don't want to be alone." I give a small smile and I turn away so he can take off his clothes and head in.

I'm genuinely worried about him. I need to pay attention to him carefully and same goes with Grayson.

"Hey, can you pass me a new bottle of soap please." He says, sniffling.

I grab it and open the door a little bit. As soon as he grabs it, he pulls me in and now my clothes are wet.

"Ethan, what did we just talk about?" I gulp, trying not to look down.

"I know and I'm sorry, but I just don't want to be away from you." He turns around and continues to wash his hair.

"Fine, I'll stay. But nothing sexual." I say waving my hands around us as he turns around. He smiles and turns back around to keep washing the rest of his hair with conditioner.

I take off my wet clothes and throw them over. I give him a hug and I feel him grab my hands.

He grips them and I can tell he's crying. He turns to me, letting my arms go and I see his eyes are red.

I hug him again and he starts to cry into my neck.

"I know it's hard but you're going to get through it. You're strong enough to get through this."

"I'm not crying because I'm sad right now, I'm crying because I got shampoo in my eye." He days quietly crying and I scoff, giggling a little.

"Ethaaaan! You can't do that." I stifle my laughter.

"I was just trying to lighten the mood." He shyly smiles as he pulls away.

"I know, but you made me nervous. Don't do it again, alright?" He nods his head and pulls away. He gives me a kiss on the forehead and cleaned the rest of his body.

He steps out and I give myself a shower as well.

Once I finish, I step out and dry myself off. I walk out with a towel on my head and around my body. Ethan looks at me and he gulps.

"You good?" I ask. He nods and I go over to his drawer that he, specifically, reserved for me to put my clothes in. I grab the clothes I put here about a year ago and bend down to open and close the drawer.

I walk back to the bathroom, but as I do, I'm stopped by a hand wrapped around my wrist. I turn to look at him and he stands up from the bed. Since he's way taller than me, he's towering over me and looking at my face as he lifts my chin up.

He leans down to kiss my lips and I kiss back. I hear him groan and I sigh, pulling away.

"Ethan, we can't." I say, shaking my head in my palms.

"Yes, we can. It's okay. I'm going to be fine... because I have you." He says, looking down at the ground.

"You'll always have me. I promise." I lean into his chest. He wraps his arms around me and kisses the top of my head.