FOREVER YOURS [ᴋᴛʜ]

TAEHYUNG

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At present still reminiscing the beautiful you.

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How do people forget the one once they loved with their all heart and soul?

How do people replace them?

My heart never wavered. It refused to replace you.

Even after these fourteen years, I couldn't stop loving you.

Strange I know. But my love for you was nothing normal.

You're my drug, my cure, my everything. I was and still am madly in love with you.

Right now, I'm in my bed. Hospital's bed to be exact.

The sun is setting and no matter how beautiful it looks, I hate it.

Your name also means sunset. And I love you.

What an irony!

These days, I feel like talking to you in person.

You can see how my health is deteriorating right?

I'm no more that twenty one year old young Taehyung whom you used to love.

I'm now a thirty five year old grown up who is simply meeting his end.

Jungkook is so serious with his studies. He says he wants to make me proud. But I'm already so proud of him. He's been my only lifeline for all these years without you.

Oh and you know, he's good at everything except dating.

Whenever I ask him to date, do you know what he says?

"Why do I need someone else when I've Taetae in my life?"

How do I make him understand that his Taetae won't be in his life for long.

And yes he still calls me Taetae. He might be a twenty three year old young lad but still act like that nine year old little Jungkookie. And I like it a lot.

I visited Nana's grave with Kook yesterday. Is she in heaven with you? I'm sure she is.

I'm afraid these days. Afraid that my mind will start forgetting your face soon like it started to forget others.

So, I wrote down. I wrote down the moments that were an important portion of my life.

The doctor told Jungkook that I won't live long. He was sobbing silently afraid of waking me up from my sleep.

But I was never asleep.

I finally finished writing this diary. Do you know what I call it?

I call it Yours.

With this diary, I feel my time has also come to an end. I've this premonition, life is going to abandon me and death is going to embrace me soon.

If that so, then see you soon, my love.

Note:
Sweetness, do you know the meaning of your name? If so, then what is it?

My real name means river :")