How long's left?

Chapter 15

I wipe of the tears down my face and get up.
I open up my wardrobe grab a grey jacket and a grey beanie.
I slip on my gloves and scarf and leave the house.
My mums never back so I can do what I want.

I stroll down to the park with a joyful smile. This is the day. The day I'm going to express my feelings. I'm going to tell her I like her. Her sweet smile. Her personality. Everything, she just so perfect.
I think to myself.
"I'm not good enough for her"
"I'm terrible, who'd like me"
Then I get that one bit of confidence. I look up and notice I bumped into a kid. He gives me this stare and starts laughing.
What was his problem?
I don't care anyway..
I pull out my phone and check the time: 5:50pm
I wipe of the sweat of my forehead and go round the last corner.
I scan my eyes around the park and notice she isn't there.
I text Brielle.

Phoenix: We're still on for tonight right?
No response
Phoenix: Hey where are you, it's 5:55
Brielle: Oh. Im so sorry I can't make it.

I then realise I've been stood up.
I knew i wasn't good enough for her. I walk over to the bench to see a paper. I pick it up and read it cautiously.

'You really thought I'd be friends with you! Ha by the way I'm with Jax. Your just a nobody. Why would I talk to you! Ha!
From Brielle x

I feel a strong emotion overcome me. Rage... I rip up the note and start punching the bench.
I've had enough!
I've had enough!
I've had enough with life...

I run back home as fast as I can.
But before I could get there Jax pushed me over. I fell straight on to the pavement, bleeding.
He kicks me multiple times before everyone else starts joining in.
I hear Jax shout out
"I told you were next Landgrab"
They back away.. I get up.
I won't give up.
I look up to Jax and say.
"Haven't you killed enough. Caspian and my sister! I know what you said to her! You told her to go kill yourself. Maybe you should!".
I rush over to Jax and punch him as hard as I can.
I stand on his head and keep kicking it.
"I've had enough! I've had enough! I've had enough! I've had enough!"
I scream before stopping.
I turn around to see police lights flashing vibrantly.
I hear.
"Stop it now, or we'll taze you!"
I look around to see a cop car.
I look down, and I dash of.
I sprint as fast as my legs could take me.
I run directly in my house before locking it.
I go to the kitchen and grab the knife.

I ascend up the dusty stairs and sit on Novas bed. I start to cut my right arm all the way down.
"AH!"
I scream before doing the other arm.
Ive had enough....