Breathe Again

Willin'

4 months later
Courtney's POV

    I have to admit the last four months have been tough. I've been working a lot more to pay for the house and for Colton. I've been trying to hang out with Colton like we used to but something has changed within him. He all of a sudden has become quiet and isn't home that often.
    "Hey Colton, why don't we go and try to take the car for a spin?" I asked him.
      "No I'm ok" he said without looking at me.
      "you sure you don't want to practice, you will be taking the test for you license before you know it" I asked him and he just shook his head.
       "Honey are you ok? You haven't been yourself lately" I asked him.
"I'm fine" he looked at the floor and grabbed his book bag and went out the door.
"Colton where are you going?" I asked concerned
"Out" he responded and started walking and chased him.
"What the hell is going through your mind that makes you think you can just leave and not tell me where you are going" I started to raise my voice
"I'm my own person mom, I'm just going to hang out and do homework! Get off my case!" He yelled at me and ran off. I stood there in shock. The Colton that I used to know would never do that to me. I went inside and started to cry.

Colton's POV

I feel bad what I did to my mom. I yelled at her and she didn't deserve it. I just can't look at her. I don't know how she would see me if she knew who I was. Colin and I have been "dating" for about 4 months now. Both of us haven't told anyone except each other that we were gay. It's hard, because I don't know how they would see me.

Flashback

"Colton" Mia yelled at me
"What?" I asked
"You were staring at that guy' she laughed 'you are so gay" she laughed a little
"I am not!" I got defensive.
"It's ok, I'll keep your little secret" she smirked and took a sip of her drink.

Flashback over

I got a text as I was walking to meet Colin.
Text: Turns out your little secret won't be much of a secret anymore! ~ M.I.A
I through my phone on the sidewalk. Of course it didn't break when I wanted to break it.
Colin and I met each other at our secret spot.
"Hey" I greeted him and he gave me a kiss.
"How are you" He asked me
"I'm ok, just been having a hard time adjusting and hiding" I answered with a fake laugh to hide.
"Colt, when I first figured it out about myself I couldn't look at my parents in the eye. I felt like I was lying to them, but I got used to it" Colin looked me in the eye.
"I wanna tell my mom but I don't want her to hate me" I told him.
"She won't hate you, I know your mom, she is the most accepting and loving women I ever met, my parents on the other hand, might not be as accepting" he answered and gave me a hug.
"Now, on to a different subject' he paused and looked at me, 'I want to take you out on a really date, like in public to eat something and not be hiding like this by a lake" he smiled at me.
"Ok, when, where?" I asked him with a curious look.
"Just be ready tonight at 6:30pm ok, I'm telling my parents that I'm going to a party out of town" he told me then started to kiss me.
"I don't know how long I can do this" I told him as I pulled away.
"What do you mean?" Colin looked nervous as his hand slid off my face.
"The lying and hiding, we have to go out of frickin' town just to see each other, I don't want to pretend anymore, I really like you, Colin, but I can't be with you unless I can actually be with you" I told him. 'So I'm gonna tell my mom soon, maybe tomorrow" I finished
"I respect that, and I don't want to hide either but, see you don't have to deal with that disappointing look from your father" he said
"No maybe not, but I know what it would look like" I answered.
"Ok well meet me here at 6:30 and we will go out" Colin smiled and gave me a kiss goodbye.
I went home and walked through the door and my mom was sitting on the couch holding a picture frame hat was broken and crying. I rushed over to her.
"Mom what's wrong?" I asked and put my arm around her.
"I was cleaning and this photo fell of the shelf and I don't know I got all worked up! I don't know what's going on colton' she took a breath, 'we had a great life and then we were hit with a bomb and I feel like I'm struggling to get air, I feel like I'm being held underwater, and you barely look at me, and I just can't do it anymore" she cried so hard. It hurt me to watch her.
"Mom it's going to be ok, I promise" I hugged her.
"Mom are you ok if I got to party tonight?" I asked her and looks her in the eye, I actually looked her in the eye. And she nodded with a smile. And she hugged me.
I got ready to go out with Colin. I looked at myself in the mirror then brushed my hair. Once I was ready I said goodbye to my mom and left the house. I met Colin and we got an Uber. We drive so far out of town we're no one at all would know us. We went into the restaurant and had dinner. We laughed and had fun. After dinner we walked around town. I was looking around. I turned and saw Colin staring at me.
"Why are you staring at me?" I asked with a laugh.
"I don't know" he smiled back and grabbed me and pulled me in and started kissing me. I kissed him back and we started making out for a few minutes then he pulled away.
"Something wrong?" I asked him. He looked around
"No, come with me" he smiled and pulled me into an area where no one was. It was a small secluded area from the rest of the town. He started kissing me again. He continued kissing me, then he started kissing my neck. And I started to unbutton his shirt and he started unbuttoning my pants......