Random Open Letters to Random People

To my ex-friend.

Hi.

Its the Christmas Season and I would really want to let these feelings and negativities off. This is to my friend whom I don't know if she's still one.

We both had pretty crazy personalities and got along well. We became close friends. We would often hold hands together on the way to the canteen.

And then, as days passed, I noticed the ways on how you avoided me. I had this feeling of someone watching with pure rage through my peripheral vision. Then I turn my head to check it out and you immediately smile. But your smile isn't the genuine smile. Just like some of the papers during the letter hunt, fake.

I was seated adjacent to you in our ---- class. Every session would mean a test and everytime the test had been done, and the teacher records our scores, you would look at me. Most especially during when its my turn to say my score. You would look at me at a way I couldn't understand.

I didn't understand what was the reason behind your sudden change of approach towards me. When my project in ---- turned out to be a real failure, you were so busy.. hiding your smirk. You kept asking me what and how are my grades. And then it came to me. I'll be blunt. I think its because of the top list you wish to get onto.

When the honor roll was announced, I went a rank down but I stayed at the top three. You were on sixth or seventh, if I am not mistaken. You were looking at the paper like you want to burn it into thousands of pieces. I couldn't believe that just because of our academic remarks, you would abandon our friendship.

I continued to ignore acknowledging your hatred. I thought that I was just being paranoid and imagined too far. But you went on a different level. You started making jokes that were really not just half meant. You made everyone think I was a bad person. And you even purposely raised your feet to block me. Good thing I had contained my balance and didn't fall. Everyone was  also busy with their own businesses so you didn't quite succeed in humiliating me.

What has made you become like this? What did I do for you to do these things to me? It hurts as hell loosing a close friend. And the worst part is, I don't know the reason why.

I hope you would find peace and erase all your hatred for me. When you've done that, I would still gladly accept you, but for now, goodbye, my friend.

~Arra