Random Open Letters to Random People

To the one who's trying.

Hi..

Let's see.. how many months had it been since I knew you liked me? Maybe 3? 4? You didn't really confess and such that.. I just knew because you were very transparent and of course, because of your friends.

I really do not know how you ended up liking me. I wasn't really pretty. I mean, there are lots of other girls. Other girls, who could possibly reciprocate what you had given me.

I catch you staring at me for hours.. I see you slighty smiling whenever I got the highest score, because you would say that I'm your girl.. You often put your head down when talking to me..

But..

I stare at him for God knows how long.. I would have a grand feast whenever he gets the highest scores.. I couldn't even talk to him..

Yes! There is someone. I couldn't say sorry to you, because saying sorry could be much meaner right? I just want you to be happy, but not with me..

I don't get it why you liked me.. My appearance isn't that likeable.. and most especially my attitude. I get late like most of the time.. I have mental and physical health issues..

I'm broken.

Who would like me?

But you changed that thought.. You made me smile with your cheesy jokes.. You helped with my math homework.. You made me realize that there's more to life..

But despite all of this, I see my sufferings.. my pain.. and the blood.. its really just so effin' painful. I want to give up with this mascarade, because I'm hurting so much but when I see you at school and you smile at me, I can't help but think..

If only I could.. If only I could stay and make you and the important people in my life happy, I would.. but I can't..

He's always waiting in my corner.. If I could choose between you happy because of me for a short period and you hurting for a long time because I couldn't come back.. I'd rather avoid the latter.

You're an amazing person. I hope you realize that.. Don't let others consume of you. You aren't an outcast, you're precious. Choose the right friends, eat great meals and embrace your flaws and everything..

Remember that most people may leave, but when they do, someone much more would come through.

Thank you for trying. But I just really can't.

Thank you for your admiration, even though a person like me doesn't deserve it. Give it to your "the one" and double it. Make it so much more.

Take care of youself. xoxo

~Arra