Random Open Letters to Random People

To my parents.

I always thought of marriage as an amazing and unbreakable promise. All the Disney movies I watched taught me that it was magical, that after marriage, the couple would live happily ever after. But how could God's so called highest and holiest form of union utterly fail?

I never thought that this was to happen. I have always adored married couples and you two were my greatest adoration. I feel so happy whenever I witness the love from both of your eyes. I always tell myself that you both should be my standard in finding my one true love someday.

To be a product of two people who are in love is such a joy. I always think that my family is the greatest. But right now, I just want to disappear.

From loving and sweet jokes, to all the shouting and fighting, I feel so weak. My family, from which I gather so much strength from, got broken just like that. I felt so lost. I felt so alone.

How could you two break just like that? It was so sudden and I was so confused. I nearly lost my mind. This kind of destruction never crossed my mind. It was unexpected and of course, unwanted.

Whenever I would go outside, curious eyes would then look at me. I looked fine, they say, and then maybe you two were okay, one would say. Those days were the hardest. A sudden change of environment and with so much going on, my strength and everything else that kept me together was slowly depleting.

My faith for love was gone just like that. Deep in my soul, I now believed that love never lasts. It was something short-term. You two were my everything. Your marriage was the greatest thing I ever witnessed. Our family was my everything.

I just want you both to know that I am not okay. I just want to tell you that I am so angry at you both. I am so disappointed. I feel so wrecked. All my beliefs, my dreams, my hopes, my everything, blossomed from both of you, now they are just nothing. I don't believe in anything anymore.