His Broken Heart

Forevermore

Chapter 4:

Hearts are fragile, beautiful things. If someone gives you one, treasure it.

Magnus' POV.

I'm scared. No, wait. I'm beyond scared. Is there such a thing? Terrified. Yes, that's it. I stare into the massive hole that Alec dropped into. Is he okay? What's wrong? Should I follow him? I don't know. Yes, I know how this sounds. Magnus Bane, High Warlock of Brooklyn, scared. I've never been this scared in my life but Alec is in that black abyss and I don't know what to do.

What if...?

No. I shake my head.

Should I follow...?

It's better than wondering in limbo by myself without my love.

I slowly, oh so slowly, walk up to the intimidating hole of nothingness.

I step where my feet dangle dangerously close to the edge.

Should I go...?

Or...

Should I stay...?

Alec's POV.

I feel like I'm falling. I hear voices calling something out. As I get closer, I hear better.

"...ec!"

"...lec!"

"Alec!"

By the angel, it's my name! Who is calling me? All of a sudden, I see a white light then I'm icy cold. I sit up, gasping, my eyes wide. I look around.

By the angel...

I'm home.

I look at Jace and Isabelle, shock written across my face. That hole was a portal back to our world, will Magnus follow me? No, why risk himself for someone like me? I think. Suddenly, I'm being hugged, and hard. It's Izzy. I smile, it's good to be here with them but it also makes me sad that I couldn't give them the one thing they needed.

I just wouldn't... die.

I hug her back, tears in my eyes but I quickly blink them away. I don't want her seeing them.

"Hey Izzy," I pull back to look at her. She's been crying and it shocks me. Why would she cry? I'm not important.

"Izzy! Why are you crying?!" I ask. Izzy glares at me.

"Because we thought you were dead, idiot! I was heartbroken," she starts crying harder.

"Why?" I say quietly, so very quiet that it is barely a sound at all. It's more like a thought that tried getting out. Izzy and Jace look at me, wide-eyed and slack-jawed.

"WHY?! ALEXANDER GIDEON LIGHTWOOD OF COURSE WE WERE SAD! YOU'RE OUR BROTHER, MY BIG BROTHER... I can't lose another one," she starts sobbing into Jace's shoulder. To say I am beyond shocked is an understatement.

They love me.

I let the tears slip down my face. Was I wrong? Do I deserve to live? I'll know if Magnus follows me through. I'll know that maybe we can make this work.

Magnus' POV.

Should I just let him be? I've done enough, I've caused him enough heartbreak. I should just stay here, he doesn't really want me back. How could he, after everything I've done to him? How could he still love me? Why would he?

I look at the hole. Why not just find out if he still cares? What's the harm? The worst he can do is say he doesn't love me anymore. Why not take that jump? I stand up and go towards the hole. I step up to the edge.

And I jump.

Magnus' POV.

~four weeks earlier~

I lie in my bed, looking at my roof. I've tried everything to get over my blue eyed beauty but nothing works. Every time I twist and turn I hear his sobs in the dark, like it echos off the walls just to torture me all night. The sight of his eyes filling with tears, the blue of his eyes darkening with sadness, his heart breaking so loud you could hear the shards of his fragile love cracking and dropping, cutting his insides so he bleeds to death.

I regret every second of every day that I didn't stop and listen to him. I know Alec would never do that to me but I'm too stubborn to have stopped and heard him out. I wouldn't be here if I had, I'd be holding my angel in my arms and he wouldn't be wherever he is now. He'd be safe with me, forevermore.

Magnus' POV.

~three weeks earlier~

I look in the mirror at my reflection. I look hollow, like I'm not fully there. Not really living but so dead, hollow and empty inside that my soul left when I left him and all that's left is a self-conceited, stubborn, 400 year old jerk. I know Isabelle would agree.

I sigh and I look into my cat eyes. Alec was the only one that never flinched away from the very sight of them. I glare at my reflection.

"Why did you do that?! We had it all! A loving partner, a sweet kind person that loved us! Now we have nothing!" I slam my fist into the mirror over and over again. I watch my corrupt, morbid reflection look back at me.

This is what's left of the great Magnus Bane, reduced to nothingness because he lost his toy. A voice in my head grows back, he wasn't a toy to me, he was my everything! I yell back into the silence, the drip drop of my crimson blood hitting the floor. The only thing disturbing the dead silence.

Ha, sure he was! If you loved him that much than where is he?! Oh, that's right. Your idiotic ways ran him off! Typical. That's all you ever do, demon! It growls, all you do is destroy! You killed your mother, your father, now Alec is gone. He left because you told him to never come back! You deserve everything you are getting! I stare emptily into the broken and destroyed mirror. You're right, I do mess up everything....

I killed him

Magnus' POV.

I sit up, gasping. I look over to see Alec and his siblings Alec looks at me oddly.

"What is it, Alec?" I ask worriedly.

"Magnus, no time has passed at all. We were only gone for five minutes," Alec looks at me, confused. I look at him like he's lost his mind.

"There's no way! We've been in there for weeks and you're trying to tell me that we've only been dead for five minutes?!" I yell. Alec looks back at me with just as much disbelief.

"I know, Mags, but that's what Jace and Iz said. We were only gone for five minutes." I get up. I look at my clothes and see Alec's red blood staining my clothes crimson. I pick Alec up.

"Jace, Iz, can you give us a second?" Jace looks ready to protest but Izzy gets him by the ear and takes him outside. I look into Alec's eyes.

"Alexander Lightwood, I've loved you for so long. I can't believe I let myself walk away from you. I have regretted it every day since the day I first laid eyes on you. You're my everything and I can't think of another day without you by my side. Will you take me back?" I say, holding him close. If he says no then I'll respect that and I'll leave him alone forever

Alec's POV.

Oh my, do I want to try again or should I tell him off? Oh, who am I kidding. Of course I do, I love him too much to think of him with anyone else.

"Of course Magnus, always. I'm forever yours," I kiss him sweetly. Magnus smiles a smile that lights up his whole face.

"Well then, thank Lilith because I've wanted to do this for a long time," he's... oh, by the angel, he's getting on his knees, "Alexander Gideon Lightwood, will you do me the greatest honour of becoming my husband, Forevermore?"