lapidot fanfiction: do you love me?

Fuckgirl..

self harm and other thing I guess Idk

Lapis POV

ok new day in school am I right.. I don't care of that crap anymore I'm a Fuckgirl now k. I was ready and headed to school one the way I met Peridot but I ignore her, I walked through the hallway to the class. I bumped into someone well it was Amethyst "hey ame what ya doing?" I smirked but she ignore me without a word she headed soon to her class and mine "rude" I sat on my chair and there comes the little nerd. She didn't talk or doing something I just smiled. The class was over and she rushed out from the classroom, I came after and saw pearl with garnet. I sat in my usual seat and I saw no nerd in the class I didn't care, it was lunch and I usually saw the others sit and talk. I sat with Jaspers group and talked I saw the nerd sit alone, I looked away and keept talking. It was the last lesson I walked towards the art lesson, I draw Idk what to call it a dark forest. "Ok everyone have a good day and remember to draw a picture for tomorrow" the teacher said while we walked out.. I met Jaspers group members beat up someone, I walked towards to them and saw The Nerd = Peridot, I smirked. Her glasses was broken and her nose was bleeding and for some reason something catch my attention it was her left eye. She had an eyepatch, in a flash one of the member took away it but they dropped it and everyone saw in shock..  I didn't see it then Pearl, amethyst, garnet with Steven came towards us. I ran with the others I looked back while I was running Peridot was shaking and crying. No regrets..

Peridot POV

I waked up but none was there accept Pumpkin I smiled and he jumped to bed and licked my face "h-hey cal down there bud I'll be back in a minute ok" I gave a smile and raised from bed and walked down to the bathroom. The only thing I hided there was my little knife I took it and bit my shirt as I drag the knife in my left eye it was shape of an L it stands you know who it was Lapis Lazuli. I cried in my right eye and I took fast my eyepatch. I stop biting and calm me down, I was heading down and took my packback and hurried to school. In the way I saw a fuckgirl called Lapis Lazuli I ignore her as she did too. I ran towards class but somehow I got lost but in a minute I found it. I sat with the fuckgirl I remember now I groaned, I could see that smirk she did I rolled my eyes and sat quiet beside her. I can't decide how I feel around her even if we broke after one week, ugh whyy. The class was over and I finally rushed out from the hell, but there was the next class I will not be there. I got out from the schoold and headed home well i'm happy I live alone with Pumpkin, I ran off to the bathroom and took the knife that I dropped and started. Cut my arms, I didn't scream only cry. I took my bandage and some paper, I'm sorry I did this.. 

After I walked to school again thank god it's lunch because now I can sit alone in my own business, I arrived and walked down to my new table. I looked as normal and for a second I saw Lapis with them again. If she get in trouble I don't care about it because she choose it, don't she remember what happend for some weeks ago?! I got up and walked to the last classroom and the sametime we sat beside each other we didn't talk only draw. I drew some sort of graveyard Idk it was great though, the teacher came towards me and asked "Peridot please why a graveyard there isn't even one flower and what do it represent of?" "Depression and anxiety it looks good without a flower ma'm" "fine" thank god she didn't complain about it but for some reason I could feel someone stare at me?.. Nevermind ignore it. "Ok everyone have a good day and remember to draw a picture for tomorrow" I nodded slowly.. I walked out from the classroom but in a flash something grabbed me by my arm, it was the members "s-stop" I almost shouted but they already had hit me in the stomach. "w-why me?" I said whining in pain then a blue haired girl came and smirked. One of their hand came closer to my eyepatch "Stop!" I shouted but they have already took it but they dropped it. their eyes was in shock. I took fast my hand and hided what I did, through the hallways I could hear fast footsteps and they there were my friends. The memebers and lapis had already ran away. I looked terrible.. only thing I could get from my mouth was "I-I'm sorry" I cried out in their arms...Then I blanked out..