lapidot fanfiction: do you love me?

leave me alone

Lapis Pov

"Peridot what is it?" "why are you suddenly doing this" "I want you bac-" "you can't" "what do you mean?!" "why can't you see lapis, I'm alone in a ocean of darkness because you only leaved me behind and treated me like a fuckgirl!!" that's it "so you mean that you are depressed as me and now I can see in your eyes that you would like to kill yourself am I right!?. And on your arm is my name on it" "ye- wait how the fuck do you know?!" "you are not so smart, I know where you l-ive" her eyes started to cry and her mouth curly "i-" and so she walked away. "PERIDOT DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE!" "go to jasper instead of me!" "NO!" my throat started to hurt by my shouting as I fell to my knees as I look at her walking away from me...

some months later

Peridot PoV

I started to smoke and drink. But it couldn't make me happier and I'm still alone as my ears went down. I looked at my phone as I got a message from Amethyst - dude get out from your house now or lapis will come! -I rather die, I responded as I looked in my house for some kind of rope. "there you are.. I hope you'll make me happy once again rope" suddenly I took a chair and went outside I had a tree in my garden. So I leaved the front door open so Lapis could see what this has bring to.. I tie a suicidal rope on the stick hanging on the tree. I sat  on the rope around my neck and throat as I stand on the chair but suddenly I heard my name from a familiar voice.   And so I kicked away the chair:

"goodbye"

Lapis PoV

I hurried to peridot house after some months and I quickly rushed in as I walked up to her room but she ain't there hmm maybe in the living room? "peridot" no answer but maybe in the garden. I walked out as I looked in the ground but so I looked around  she isn't- "PERIDOT!!" I saw her hanging by her tree her body is dead. SHE IS DEAD! I quickly grabbed a small knife from the kitchen as I try to cut the rope from her but her neck has already swollen up and I could see some rope scars like if you try to drag the head out of the body. 

What have I done...

I'm sorry