Keep your hopes high ( gxg, Demi Lovato fanfic)

chap 24

Demi's POV

 Its been two years now since the incident at the pic-nic party with my Family and Elly, I guess she moved one I dont know, after what I did , she went back to europe and since this day we didnt talk to each other, how could have been so stupid... I broke her heart..

Everything was so perfect, and I just fucked everything up.. I m still so angry about myself, I still cant believe it. oh god I just lost the love of my life..

My family didnt talk to me for a whole month a part from Dallas, who tried to make me realised how stupid I was. I know she still have contact with Elly and so Maddie and my whole family too, but when I ask them they just change the topic and dont tell me anything about her anymore... I tried to call her but it always went on voicemail so i kinda give up now. I try everyday to move on but I cant Im still so in love with her.

I have a World tour who beggin in less than thirty minutes, I am in my dressing room thinking about everything. Nathalie come up to me to say I have to go on stage now, I didnt realised the time was going so fast. well lets put on my best smile for my Lovatics i dont want them to ask question. 

"Helloooo San Fran How are you tonight??" I shout in the mic  getting on stage, the crowd went crazy and scream their lungs out, it gives me the chills like always , I love performing for them, they always help me in my tought time and those days they were really helpfull. 

"Puttin’ my defenses up

‘Cause I don’t wanna fall in love

If I ever did that

I think I’d have a heart attack

Never put my love out on the line

Never said "Yes" to the right guy

Never had trouble getting what I want

But when it comes to you, I’m never good enough

When I don’t care

I can play ‘em like a Ken doll

Won’t wash my hair

Then make 'em bounce like a basketball

But you make me wanna act like a girl

Paint my nails and wear high heels

Yes, you make me so nervous

That I just can’t hold your hand

You make me glow,

But I cover up

Won’t let it show,

So I’m...

Puttin’ my defenses up

'Cause I don’t wanna fall in love

If I ever did that

I think I’d have a heart attack [3x]