Dear notes of my thoughts,
It's like I feel worthless sometimes.. I haven't been the same and I'm doing more than I should. I want to become a new person physically and mentally. I do more to forget but when I forget, it's only temporary; the pain and thoughts come back. I just wish to pursue more and have more but luck isn't on my side. After the heartbreaking news, I was able to move but my soul stood still. Things will never be the same after that day..Hostility and aggression meet me at my front door. I just want to press the restart button. I go on day by day,lifting my head up, with a 30 second smile to feed to the people, and it still doesn't get better. Everybody says to keep a positive mind on my shoulders but how can I do so when the negative energy that is taking over the world continues to knock me down on my knees almost everyday ? It's like sometimes I don't want to be alive but I do at the same time. Does that even make sense ? It seems that the only ones who carry the Happy trait are the wealthy ,who don't have to stress about being perfect in an imperfect world. But hey, I have to be happy that I'm alive right ? The only thing I can do at this point is take it one day at a time.
