Fame & Love ~ a Shawn Mendes fanfic

Chapter nineteen ~ So in love

I really want to know why my life is so confusing and complicated.
I mean first I fall for Shawn then I heard he liked Camila... then he goes and hooks up with Hailey Baldwin, and now I'm trying to move on with Anthony because he's very sweet and I might have a tiny crush on him.
I have a brother who I've never known about..
this is all too much.

But deep down I still really like Shawn.. I mean he's so great and so perfect and he's so kind.

Ugh if only Hailey didn't get into his fucking life and ruined my chance to ever be with him.

Anyways I need to get ready for my interview!
Oh yeah I forgot to mention. Shawn will be there too so fuck my life.

My stylist/make up artist Julian helped me choose an outfit and did my make up.

My outfit wasn't much though. It was a beige knit sweater with a high neck and I wore kinda dark blue skinny jeans with long beige boots. With a cute little silver necklace.

It was always cold in late October in Toronto so yayy winter outfits !

Julian put on some natural make up for me and some light brown matte lipgloss.

She decided to curl up my hair just a tiny bit to make it look wavy and we're done !

"Oooo lookin good girl! You're ready to go" she laughed.
"Thanks Julian you're the best" I hugged her

The limo is outside my car... which means Shawn is in there so fuck.

I walked out my door and saw the beautiful black limo.

The limo driver rushed out and opened the back door for me, and in that moment I saw Shawn .. he looked so fucking good oh my god.

I smiled at the limo driver and stepped into the limo and took a seat.
I tried so hard not to stare at this handsome human being sitting right next to me.

I took a deep breath and looked out the window when I heard Shawn asking
"Can we talk?"

I looked at his perfect face and simply said "there's nothing to talk about"

He came closer. So close that I can now feel his hot breath on my face. Holy mother-

"Jade" he said.
"Shawn" I repeated.
Ugh thank god nobody can see anything going inside the limo because the windows are too dark.
And there's a piece of material blocking where the driver is so he can't see us either.

"I'm sorry.. I know you hate me so fucking much jade but.. I have a reason."
He took a deep breath then continued.

"I've liked Camila before I even met you. And my feelings towards her are fading and that kiss.. it meant nothing to me jade. It's nothing compared to what .. we share.
And for Hailey. We're just friends I swear and what happened between us.. it was a distraction. I was too scared I didn't want to get too attached to you because I've never felt this way for anyone before.. please know that I really really like you and I never meant to hurt you. You're great and you only deserve the best. I'm sorry" he was done speaking and he looked very apologetic.

Which kind of left me speechless.
I just stared into his eyes unsure of what to do or say.

So what I ended up doing was something I've wanted to do for a very long time.

I grabbed him by his neck and pulled him closer to me and kissed him softly.

He pulled me onto his lap as we continued.
His lips trailed down my neck as he gently kissed the spot.