maybe i shouldn't have treated her the way i did i've lost the best thing that has ever happened too me because i made a mistake. i feel like a horrible person & i just wish i could take everything back but they say things happen for a reason. she made me the happiest person ever until we started arguing then we slowly started fading away which she thought i would leave & never return but we always found a way back too each other. no matter how many arguments or fights we get into i'll always have feelings for that girl i'm never gonna lose those that's my heart & it will stay that way. i'm sorry that things had too end this way & i'm sorry that we're not friends too this day because of the mistake i made.
i wish i could fix everything & make everything go back too the way it was before whenever it was all giggles & smiles i could go too sleep & wake up too her smile. whenever we would spend hours on the phone just talking about random things until the sun came out & maybe even longer. she was my everything until i made a huge mistake & now i hate myself it's all my fault i ruined everything. i hate myself more & more each day i hate myself so much i think about punishing myself for it. why did i choose too do these things too people i'm sorry i really am & i know i can't fix it anymore i regret it. why am i even alive whenever i mess everything up everyone eventually leaves me because i'm nothing once again i'm sorry.
