The Abused Girl And The Gangleader

pity

Play the song at the start of the flashback if you want to the song is A drop In the ocean Ron Pope

Recap:

"C..can you p..put mm..me d.down pp.. please"

He gently put me on the floor and my legs buckled beneath me so I just sat there staring at them all to gone to move

Now:

This is so weird I can't even describe it they are all just staring at me in pity and I hate pity this makes me really angry I mean not the average

'errggghhh' or 'stop looking at me like that' angry.

The 'don't look at me Like that ever again all or else I'll fucking kill you...' angry.

Yerrr they should probally not look at me like that

"Ssstttoooppppp iittttt."

Wow. That's all you can come up with after all that whining well that's gonna get you so far isn't it. Ergh stoppppp iitttttt.

"Stop what?"

They seem generally confused a what I just said so they are the pity with out realising it that soooooo annoying.

"L...look..king a..at mm..me l..like t..that I h..hate pp..pit..tyy"

"Oh wait what."

"I h..hate it bb..because i..it's t..the look e..everyo..one gives you when they find o..out y..your parents a..a..a"

You can't even say it your so useless. My conscience was right I couldn't bring myself to say the truth so I chose different words with the same meaning but without thinking it kind of just pored out of my mouth

"Hit you and kk.kicked you and t..then y..your t..temporary g..guard..dian also h..hits you aa..and kk.icks y..you"

good going you just told them your past all because of the pityfull looks they gave you .

Now's my chance to run bolting it over towards the front door throwing a quick glancing over my shoulder to see that they were all still stood there staring at me in confusion now as well as the initial shock of me speaking like that to them. I ran through the front door out towards the road.

My concience screaming at me to turn around and go back but at the same time telling me they will never want me again.

what is wrong with you your so stupid you can't even keep a little secret

So I ran.

And i kept running

I don't how long for but I just kept running taking left's and rights. Here and there. Trying to keep moving to make sure they dont find me but everything got too much after what was probally only 5 minutes of speed walking/running.

With the lack of nourishment and care to my battered body meant i could only take so much and I was just about done with running from everything.

Sitting down and taking in my surroundings made me realise that I was in an all to familiar part of town. Dispite everything that's happened here since i last came it couldn't be more welcoming.

I used to come here as a kid this used to be my escape. My almost happy place.

Now it's looking worse than ever and almost all of its been destroyed or graffitied on but I don't mind here I can let everything go and just be me.