Controlled

Morning after!

jess PoV

i wake up with jax arms around me squeezing me into his body so tightly like his doesn't want to let me go, then flashbacks of yesterday came back i started squirming in his arms trying to break lose but the moment i moved my legs excruciating pain shot through both my thighs and my vagina.

i couldn't stop myself before it happened, an ear piecing scream left my lips, my body went into hyperdrive as i tried to get out of his arms. he shot up so quickly i nearly got dizzy watching him he dashed to the other-side of the room and turned the light on.

i was sitting on the bed shaking as endless tears run down my face. eventually i looked up and made eye contact with him he didn't say anything he just watching me with concern and guilt look on his face. i seemed to get out of what ever non speaking trance i was in.

"just make it stop...please make it stop. it hurts" i beg him choking on my tears.

the look in his eyes makes me cry more i don't know if he regrets what he done but i can tell by the look on his face he feels guilt for the way I'm reacting now but what did he expect. more tears run out my eyes and down my face i couldn't stop it the pain was to much.

"please help me. it hurts" i beg again.

his snapped out of his trance and ran towards me he tried to grab my face but when i flinched away from him he dropped his hand and rested them on my lap.

I just sat there crying not knowing what to do just Staring at his hands watching his every move.

I don't want him touching me but I don't have the strength to remove his hands from my legs, I'm still crying chocking on my sobs. Shaking.

Jack is at a lost of what to do I can tell, for the first time in about 5 minuets but what felt like hours I looked up at him as I've calmed down now to see he had unshed tears in his eyes

"help me" i whisper, tears start to roll down his face but he still helps me, he helped me bathe and even plaited my hair for me and dressed me

i couldn't comprehend what had happened it was all a blur that i just want to forget, i can't believe he did this to me his meant to love me you don't rape someone you love.

we are currently in our room I was curled up in a ball under the covers while jack was sitting on the chair.
I don't want to move I just want to stay here forever I don't want to be around him or anyone else but unlucky for me it doesn't seem like my wishes are going to come true today.

It was around lunch time when jack pulled the covers off me I didn't move or make a sound though.
"Get up lunch is ready"
"Not hungry" I grumble back to him as on queue my stomach rumbles
"Sound like you are" he says while grabbing my arm and hoisting me to my feet.

He drags me downstairs wearing nothing but one of his tops into the kitchen where everyone is with a tight grip on my arm he sits me down on my usual chair next to his everyone is looking at us but like a good little pet I keep my eye on the table don't want to give jack more reason to hate me.

Everyone is talking while eating, I haven't touched a single thing on my plate. Even Chloe is talking to the everyone,
"Eat your food" jack whispers to me, for the first time since I entered the room I look up at him.
"I told u I wasn't hungry" I whisper back at him.

I know it sounds stupid not eating when clearly I need to but it's the only thing right now in my life his not controlling he controls my whole life but if I have this one thing I can control maybe it give me some hope of getting out of here.

Jack looked around the table before answering me he had that look in his eyes he always gets when his mad but not to mad he knows what his doing.
Before I could talk him out of anything he grabbed my arm to stand me up while standing up himself.