moon-bound ♤ wolfstar

chapter//one

this chapter is admittedly rushed. i rush everything, though, so don't be too surprised :)))

also- the flashbacks solely focus on remus & sirius, or on remus and his transformations. or jily. bc it's cute.

now, while looking for jily fanart, i played the game of "is this jily or hinny uhh i don't see a scar i must be in the clear" so i picked at random and hoped for the best, sorry

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A month was all it took to get everything ready and planned out. They had converted most of their money into American dollars, and Lily managed to buy a car before they even left Europe so they didn't have to worry about that when they got there. Though Lily, James, and Sirius were the only ones with a license. Lily got hers because her parents had been muggles, so it was easy to do. James and Sirius had gotten theirs with her, seeing as how they were both eager to do so, while Peter and Remus weren't as eager.

They had planned to fly across the Atlantic and land in New York. They wanted to start with one of the uppermost states and make their way to California, coast to coast, before deciding what they wanted to do from there. Lily had informed them that really a road trip across America didn't take very long, if they really wanted to it may only take a week to get coast to coast. Of course, they didn't like the idea of only having it take a week, so they all agreed to drag it out anywhere from one month to six. "The longer the better," Sirius had decided.

They had everything packed and ready to go, all they had left to do is apparate to the airport and fly, then pick up their car and find a hotel for the night, discussing what they were going to do after. Remus was conflicted on many levels because he had just suggested one of his biggest fears. Travelling to a new place with little to no knowledge on it, and flying, in a plane, that didn't sound too fun either. He also wasn't too excited to sit next to James on the flight because he knew James would interrogate him on why he was doing this and if it had anything to do with his old relationship with Sirius.

And of course, the answer was no. He was doing this because he didn't want to jeopardize their friendship and living in such a small space was doing just that. Besides, maybe he did just need a break from London and metaphorically leave everything behind because Merlin knows he needed to; he needed to leave his broken past behind, even if he was taking a pretty big piece of it with him. At the mere thought of him, Remus couldn't help but glance at him, at that goddamn playful smile twitching on his lips.

Remus couldn't help but realize how he fell in love with that godforsaken man, but once was enough. Falling out of love was even harder, more painful, and he couldn't bear to put himself through that again. He sighed and gripped James' arm, feeling the tug as they apparated away from their now-old house, arriving in the back of the airport where the couple wizard employees assured them they could go. Remus gently gripped the back of James' jacket as he walked through the airport since Remus was always the one to get lost or overwhelmed with the crushing amount of people.

Once on the plane, his heart was pounding in his chest; he got the window seat, something he was not happy about. He didn't like heights and this was a height. He was just glad James sat next to him rather than Peter, and especially Sirius. He'd be wanting to hurl himself out of the window if Sirius had been the one next to him. He felt safe with James next to him; he was always the baby of the group, oddly enough, and James had been the one to initially take Remus under his wing. Sirius had just been a bonus, one he now wished he would've ignored.

"Remus?" James whispered. They were in the air now, the initial fear of the take-off had passed and left him slightly queasy, wanting nothing more than to once again be safe on the ground. James huffed and grabbed Remus's hand, almost roughly, to properly get his attention. He looked over at James curiously, making the older boy sigh and loosen his grip on his hand. "I just... are you going to be okay?"