moon-bound ♤ wolfstar

chapter//five

so the first big piece of this chapter is a bunch of little flashbacks that kind of show what exactly happened w sirius and remus  && i'm not italicising it bc it's kind of a lot thanks let's gO

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The summer following their fifth year they wrote to each other whenever they had the chance. Sirius told Remus about what his family was like, what happened between them, and his reason for moving in with James a mere week after summer had started. He managed to convince his father to let him go over to James' place the week following the full moon. They, Sirius and Remus, spent their time lazing around and listing to tapes, pretending no one else existed. Truly, their first summer together was one to look back on and remember. 

All four (Peter visited for a month, arriving three days after Remus had) of them stayed up many nights talking and wandering the vast expanse of land the Potters' house sat on. They memorized it, every lake and trail and tree. Remus lost his virginity to Sirius that summer out by the lake one night. They had taken a few blankets, pillows, and a basket of food for a moonlight picnic but it turned into something so much more.

Remus only had to go back because of the upcoming full moon, apologizing numerous times to Sirius, who was near begging him to stay. The full moon that month had been particularly bad because he had gotten used to Moony having someone else to play with and be around, someone to keep him distracted and in check, to keep him from hurting himself. Moony hadn't been happy with his friend's absence, and in result clawed himself up rather than the door to the shed he was locked in.

He didn't see his friends again until the start of the next school year, where Sirius ran up to him and hugged him as tightly as he possibly could, making the bruises and scratches from his most recent transformation ache even more. Remus only hugged him back as tightly as he could until Remus's father decided he wanted to meet Sirius. The introduction went smoothly, his father seemed to like the boy despite his rock tee and leather jacket, something Remus could only picture Sirius in.

The first two months of the school year were uneventful until Sirius couldn't help but notice whenever Remus was gone overnight, so was James. It had barely crossed his mind the day after the second full moon of the year and he quickly brushed it off. But the next month, they disappeared at the same time once again. The night after, Remus had been lying in Sirius's bed and he decided to ask Remus about it.

"Why is it whenever you disappear for a night James does too?" With the way they were laying, Sirius could feel his boyfriend's heart rate speed up. Sirius held him closer while he awaited an answer.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean you've disappeared overnight a few times and every time you do, James is gone that night too," Sirius explained. Remus let out a soft chuckle and nuzzled his nose into Sirius's neck.

"Sometimes I take nighttime walks, I like walking around alone sometimes, it's nice to just gather my thoughts and take some time to myself. I don't have a clue what James is doing, you'll have to ask him yourself," Remus replied. 

"You're not..." Sirius swallowed thickly before continuing. "You're not cheating on me with him, are you?" Remus couldn't hold back a bark of laughter that was sure to wake someone if they hadn't cast a silencing charm on the bed. 

"Cheat on you with someone like James? I have god himself in my arms and you think I'd cheat on you, with James? Oh, Siri, you must be insane, the Black bloodline is finally getting to you. Besides, he's been in love with Lily since the day she decided she hated him." Sirius grinned down at him and nodded briefly. He knew it was stupid to think about, but this confirmation made him feel better. He knew Remus wasn't being completely honest with the first half of his story, but he was pretty damn sure Remus wasn't cheating on him. James didn't even like blokes, what was he thinking?