Sing Sing Sing (Nick & Demi) (Nemi)

IV: Movin' On

Nick

It's been two months since that day Demi arrived at my counter.. since I was first introduced to that beautiful smile that melted hearts and excited me whenever it appeared

It's been already two months.. two crazy months where I got distracted whenever she started singing at night or that I embarrassed myself by letting drinks fall or even wetting myself at the sink just because I wasn't focused on what I was doing

It's been two months since Joe finally got something interesting to do at the bar.. teasing me.. he was thrilled to go to work, only to see me make a fool of myself in front of her and then laugh about it

And now that these two months passed by, as I heard the words leaving this man's mouth, I finally understood that everything was about to change..

- Joe, I want you to go to the counters while Nick, you'll be the waiter.. It's just a new strategy that I am trying to do to see what goes better with the placement.. if Joe is really the right person for the tables or not.. Jess you can also work along with Joe while th ohers will all be in different spots of the room.. do we all agree? - Mr. Anderson asked making my stomach turn

I looked at Joe and nodded..

You see.. to anyone outside, it wouldn't be a big deal.. but I tend to overreact.. and to me, these words could be translated to "You'll never have time to talk to Demi ever again.."

Mr. Anderson let some people come inside and introduced them to us.. they would work with us from now on, helping with whatever they could.. this all happened because The Bar was actually getting pretty crowded and popular, which was a big thing here in New York for a small business..

We opened the establishment and it was go time.. like I predicted, I couldn't speak a word to Demi as I did my job.. there always was someone trying to call me to order something or someone leaving, so I had to clean the table.. and I knew this would start to be an everyday thing, which didn't please me at all..

Fast forward to the end of the night, Joe left early like he always did and shortly after, Demi went out too leaving me to close this place all alone

My thoughts started to wander to Olivia once again.. I found myself comparing her to Demi for some odd reason.. they were both beautiful women but I found myself slowly getting detached from Olivia as time went on of me thinking about Demi

But I still couldn't allow myself to feel things towards her.. I was too hurt by something I never thought would ever hurt me.. someone I never thought would hurt me..

Of course I held no grudges against Olivia, but it still ate my soul away..

I closed down the bar and went home.. as much as I wanted to hate Olivia for what she had done, I couldn't.. she was a really important piece of my heart that actually shaped me into who I am now.. So even though I wanted to hate her, I couldn't

I walked to the bus stop while popping my headphones on.. when the bus finally arrived, I found a seat right at the back.. I was feeling quite tired, physically and emotionally, so I decided to close my eyes and just enjoy the slow music

I opened my eyes once again and looked out the window to watch the New York streets.. March was just starting so it wasn't as cold as it used to be.. I looked around me and my eyes crossed with a beautiful blond girl who immediately looked back down at her book.. her eyes then cam up again to look at me and a small smile spread across her lips

I also gave her a small shy smile.. not really knowing why I was doing it.. I guess it was the exhaustion talking to be honest.. My stop appeared on the tiny screen so I got up and pressed the button so I could get out.. I walked right past her but we never said a word.. and I knew I would never see this girl again but for some odd reason, I felt happy..

Maybe because these past months I haven't felt.. atractive..

Between dealing with my heartache and knowing Demi doesn't really want to have anything to do with me.. I guess my self esteem has just been kinda low..

I missed having someone.. someone to love, to care for, to look out for.. someone to protect from all evil and to just simply lean on to..

By now I would've been married if life hadn't played a trick on me.. but honestly, I wouldn't go back in time for anything.. I knew this was God's plan and that He is preparing something to me, so I will just have to keep my faith in him strong..

Spring went by quickly and things in my life kept the same.. I would just wake up, go to work and then go back home everyday.. it started to get monotonous so I started to put myself out there in the dating game.. well.. not really to date anyone, but to have some kind of relationships with girls..

Specially at the bar, I would flirt with some of the woman who would spice things up with me, probably because I was finally ready to move on and just do me.. I was tired of being sad and feeling low.. I wanted to have fun and enjoy my time as a 20 year old guy

I tried to push the feelings I started to feel for Demi away as much as I could.. it helped that I was waitressing instead of being at the counter.. that is because I didn't really have time to talk to her or get to know her that well.. we did talk for short moments since Joe always left both of us alone at night so he could go home to Sophie, but it really wasn't enough to establish a friendship..

I still was really atracted to her, but like I said, I'm pushing all of that aside

Focusing on moving on..