The Bucket List

Chapter eleven

Chapter eleven

They had moved a small bed like thing in the room so I could sleep, and my sister had brought me a bag of cloths and my bathroom products. I hadn't lied when I said I wouldn't leave him, I've stuck to it. I didn't even leave the room for food, one of the nurses would just pop in and give me breakfast, lunch or dinner. But sometimes I couldn't hold it down, my emotions would be too high and I'd vomit my food up.

Summer was nearing to a end and it only reminded me how Aaron's days were limited. They had told me he still might die and to loose hope, but I couldn't. I couldn't leave him. I had spent a straight month and a half here and I'd live here forever If I could. My back had gotten used to the uncomfortable bed and the terrible food barely made a impact on my tongue anymore. All I needed was him.

Aaron's mom visited every other day, bringing fresh flowers, but she never stayed more than twenty minutes. It disgusted me how excited she was about this new baby and how she was leaving Aaron and I alone at the time we finally needed her.

Tabya visited on weekends and would sometimes squeeze into my bed with me so she could stay the night. She was holding me together, bringing me fresh clothes and food. We held each other as we cried and talked until there was nothing to say.

I placed a hand over my mouth and breathed out, wincing when I smelt my breathe. Gross. I probably smelled too. Pushing myself from my seat by Aaron's bed, I walked to the bathroom where I had already made it mine. My clothes were strung all over the floor, kicked away from the shower area, and the sink was covered in toothpaste and mouthwash from yesterday. I stared into my reflection and grimaced. I rarely looked at myself anymore, for this exact reason. My brown eyes looked dead and my hair had grown too long and wasn't as kept. I rubbed my stubble, but I couldn't bring myself to shave it. I didn't have the motivation.

Walking to the shower, I switched it on and stepped away quickly to strip. When I walked into the stream, I hissed at the scalding water but made no move to change it. I liked the pain, it helped me cope in ways Tabya couldn't. The water that swirled around my feet felt like I was being hypnotized, round and round. What would it be like to just drain away?

I clenched my fist on the wall and cursed out loud. How the hell could I think of something so selfish like suicide? There was no way I was just going to leave Aaron alone! What the fuck am I thinking? I felt so overwhelmingly guilty.

I finished quickly, dressed and bursted from the room needing to be close to Aaron. I stopped short when I saw a doctor injecting something into his IV. The doctor looked up and flashed me a smile.

"What are you doing?" I hiss. "You haven't been in here for almost two months! Why are you suddenly doing shit?"

He frowned but sighed. "This is a tumor shrinking drug that the FDA just approved. It's still in the testing stage, but it's safe enough."

"So this will cure his cancer?" I tremble.

He smiled. "It will lengthen his life span by probably another ten years. If it shrinks small enough, we could possible do surgery to remove it and leave him cancer free."

I threw myself at him, wrapping myself tightly around him. "Thank you so much! Oh god." He awkwardly patted my back before pulling away but I grabbed his arms. "Will he wake up?"

The doctor smiled again. "His brain put him in a coma to protect him from the tumor. It sensed that it was getting bigger and Aaron's life was in danger so it put his life on pause. I'm sure that after the tumor shrinks his brain will wake him up."

I let go of him and dropped on Aaron's bed next to him. "How long?"

"Could range from days to a week. A tumor won't shrink in just hours."

I thanked him and he left. His mom did care, she had to. Doctors couldn't treat a minor without asking permission from a parent or guardian. His mom approved this, but why wouldn't she visit?

My fingers itched to call her but I also didn't want to deal with her. Instead I called Tabya and informed her about Aaron's new treatment. She arrived only an hour later, hair soaking wet and her clothes stuck to her skin as if she had pulled them on still wet. "How is he? Is there any improvement? Is he going to be ok?"

"He's the same, not yet, and yea."

She smiled and dropped on his bed, picking up his hands and pressing them to her cheeks. "You're gonna be all better soon Aaron! Just you wait! But you gotta hold strong!" She suddenly frowned and looked at me. "I haven't seen dad since he was last here."

"That's not normal? He spends months away from us just being with his whores, it's why we moved here. He ran out of ass to tap."

She smiled a little. "Yea, but he could at least send flowers."

"Id throw them away."

She grins. "You're right, it's best not to think about him. Bad air isn't good for the ill." She placed his hands down and pinched his pale cheeks. "Isn't that right baby? Where's his mom?"

I leaned against my chair and picked up a water bottle. "She's busy nurturing the little bastard inside her."

Tabya frowned at me. "Don't mock that baby. He's an innocent brought into this, he couldn't do anything about it."

"No, but she could've kept her legs closed." I hissed. "When the fuck did she find the time to find a boyfriend?"

"Maybe he was just a simple lay."

"No." I frown. "She wouldn't have been so excited about being pregnant if it was just random."

She winced before taking Aaron's hand. "Maybe he was, and she's excited that she gets a second chance to not have a screwed up son."

"Aaron is NOT screwed up!" I shout.

Tabya hardly seems affected. "These are her words, she said something like that the first day didn't she?"

"Fucking bitch!" I grown leaning back into my chair. "That whore doesn't deserve to be a mother."

"Hey! Don't forget that she did everything for him before this all happened!"

"Yea," I snorted. "Keeping him in a bubble was doing everything!"

Tabya only sighs and grabs Aaron's remote, switching it to a fashion channel.

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AN/ yet another small chapter but it's a eventful one am I right? Yea? Yea.