Hanahaki (Felix X Oswald)

chapter 36

I stared at the food, I wasn't hungry to start off with, but now I didn't want it at all.
"He stumbled over your name you heard what he was about to say" my head taunted me.
"He was about to call you Ortensia, you know it" my brain wouldn't let me have a break.
"He just stumnled over his words that's all" I argued feeling myself become dizzy.
"Stop lying to yourself, he doesn't love you and you know it" my brain came back at me.
"He has to be feeling something! Remember the flowers? There wasn't a flower, I'm getting better!" I tried to convince myself, yet it was no use.
I finally gave in, my heart sinking in my chest as I came back into reality.
"Mickey I'm very sorry, but I'm not that hungry right now" I pushed the plate away.
Oswald glared at me with annoyance and confusion.
"I'm sure you should ea-" Oswald started, but Mickey cut him off.
"No Ozzy if he's not hungry he doesn't have to eat" Mickey gave me a soft smile.
"Thank you Mickey...now if you will escuse me I have to go finish a book. I am behind schedule after all." I gave a convincing smile before walking towards the steps.
Once I was sure I was out of sight I rushed upstairs to the bathroom and locked the door. I felt sick to my stomach in multiple ways.
I looked in the mirror, instantly regretting my decision. I do look just like her.
"I'm just a replacement!" I slammed my hand against the counter in rage.
My eyes shrunk as pain raced through my hand. My nausea went straight through the roof and I ended up throwing up after all. The pain in my hand didn't help as I gaged.
"J-just a replacement..." I flushed the toilet and sat there, tears running down my face
"All I have ever been is a replacement" I felt rage fill me up again, but it didn't last long. In minutes I went from pissed to crying. I was in so much pain physically and mentally that it was the only thing I could do to not scream.
"Felix?" I heard Bendy ask from outside.
"Just leave me alone and fuck off!" I yelled.