A Self-Hate Diary for Me by Me

Unknown Date, 2015

I suffer from:

~An inferiority complex

~Acute anxiety

~Overly high stress

~Non-existent self-confidence (self-esteem or otherwise)

~No beauty to speak of

~Also no talent

~Might as well have the IQ of a snail

~Feelings of worthlessness

~Indolence

~Naivete

~Ignorance

~Existential Crises

~Fear of Mirrors

~Body image issues

~Crisis of belonging SOMEWHERE

~Heavy feelings of responsibility

~Social awkwardness (MAJOR social issues)

~Disconnection

~Awful languid anemia

~Overthinking (definitely will lead to my downfall)

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I believe one of my major problems right now is overthinking. I'm stuck in the past, hanging onto the present, and trying to foretell a murky future. Honestly, I'm surprised I have lasted this long. I ask: Why me? I'm not important, promising, or special. So it's clear I should drop off the face of the Earth, right?

No one would miss me (or at least I hope not, I'm not worth missing). An added bonus would be that I would be stress free without a care in the world and whatnot. Anyway, it doesn't seem like the dead to much anyway.

That's actually another thing I'm thinking a lot about: the dead and their world. But that's a topic for next time; for I could go on a whole bittersweet tirade on the matter. However, I have been getting the urge to just sleep forever...does this mean I want to die? Please, tell me...