Me and Mateo

chapter 7

Don't play song in mm yet
Kay's POV

Me and tator finally got the dance down pack it took awhile but we got it.

Me: thank God I'm all sweaty

I decided to take off my shirt and all that was left we me in a sports bra and tights
Ayo walked on us dancing and smiled through the mirror I could see him licking his lips

Ayo: damn Shawty
Teo looked mad

Teo: bro stop he said with an attitude

Ayo: what?? She belong to u

Teo: yes
Me:no   (same time )

After that I decided I was going to leave but I was wearing this

I couldn't walk outside like this I look like a modified hoe but what was I going to do I couldn't call my mom cuz I'm pretty sure she was working late

Me:fuck me. I sighed

Teo: I would like to but...
He stopped when he saw that I wasn't laughin

Teo: what happened Lala

I laid on the floor grinning

Me :don't call me that idiot nothing it's just I don't want to walk outside like this I only have a sports bra on somebody's going to

I stopped after all these years I still can't say that word

Teo: you can borrow my Bape hoodie stay here
I nodded and he came back with this huge hoodie that looks like it fit him

Me: who the fuck supposed to wear that that shit look like it's going to swallow me

Teo: shut up and put it on

Me: who is you talking...

Before I could talk anymore he placed the hoodie over my head his hand accidentally grabbed my boob

Teo: oops he said grinning

I told him thank you and said my goodbyes I gave him a hug that seemed like it went on for a little too long then left with my sister

I called an Uber and after about a half an hour we finally got back home I unlocked the door and walked in my mom was sitting there mad as hell

Her: pooh go upstairs change your clothes close the door and go to bed now

Pooh  stopped laughing and went upstairs she knew something was wrong just like I did

Me: I guess I'm in trouble

Her: sit your ass down and listen to me so I'm at work and this little girl about Pooh's age comes in with scrapes all over her arm and looks like she just got dragged her mother comes in yelling at me saying that my daughter beat her up this isn't like Pooh so explain to me why you told Pooh to beat her up little girl is innocent why would you come here and ruin that why are you like this you still can't come to terms with me and your father being divorced

I sat there for a minute in silence taking in everything she just said then I chuckled quietly
Play song now
Her: what seems to be  so funny Kaylanni

Me: the fact that you still don't know why I'm like this is funny. You dont know why I feel to fight and defend myself so much. This isn't about you and dad being divorced I came to terms with that a long time ago I know how he hit you I was there

Her: if that's not what this is about the what is it about. she said yelling at me . what gives you the right to come into my house and change my child

I sat there keeping my composure staying calm and talking as slowly and smoothly as I could I could tell I was scaring her.

Me: tell me something Mom at what age did I start acting this way do u even remember ?

Her: what does this have to do with anything
I looked her in her eyes
Her: when you were around 10

Me: do you remember what happened when I was 10 when I was 10 and pooh was 5?

Her: are you talking about when I got my first boyfriend after the divorce

Me: good now you're thinking do you remember how you used to leave us there with him everyday while you went to work how you trusted him with your two girls

I begin to cry and the rest of the room was silent
For the first time since the divorce I saw a teardrop from her mother's eyes but she still didn't talk

Me: one day I walked in on him trying to force himself into Pooh
I tried to stop him but he turned on me and raped me instead he looked me in my eye while I was crying begging him to stop and spit on me
I stood up and got louder
Me: while you were gone he raped me everyday I would sit with the shower running cold water after it happened trying to rub the dirt off me he made me do things that no 10 year old should even know he made me this way and you let him

Me and my mother both full-on and tears she shook her head no not grasping what I was telling her

Me: so I was mad ever since that day .
I shrugged

Me: i was mad . I was holding in Anger that couldn't come out as hard as I cried as loud as I yelled it wouldn't come out. He raped me everyday he threatened my life

Me:  told me not to tell anybody or he would kill me and Pooh. I did it to save her I did it so she wouldn't become this monster that I am now. after he would do that everyday I would go into my room and sit on the floor in the corner and pooh would come to hold me she didn't know it was happening but you should have known everyday for 2 years until you broke up with him this happened to me for two years of my life ,mom, you were oblivious back then and you still are now.

Me: so yes I became angry .I hated him ,I was mad at you, I was mad at myself and I had nobody to take that out on so I started fighting .I had to anger in me that I still have in me and as much as I fight it won't come out. you were so naive so oblivious to what was happening around you and you are now your daughter was getting bullied since 5th grade.

Me:  girls would beat her up but you were too busy with work to realize just like you were back then . so yes I taught her how to fight I told her to beat that girl up because she had been bothering her since 5th grade I did something because you didn't.

My mother sat down in shock and i stomped upstairs too pooh who was sitting at the top of the steps crying I sat down hugged her and kissed her forehead then got back up.

Pooh: where are u going ?

Me: I'll be in the morning  ok? Stay here with  mommy she needs you.
I noticed my voice cracking with every word.
She nodded and I ran into my room grabbing my phone and my keys and marched back down.
My mother reached for me "im so.."  I ignored her and continue walking out the door not knowing where my feet were taking me crying with each stepped I took