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Max watched as El concentrated on the book she was reading, occasionally mouthing out tricky words, a habit she'd never quite been able to drop. She thought back to what her mom had said to her, and Billy too over a year ago now, how could her own family be so ignorant, so hurtful. I ran away for you, left my whole family behind for you, and I'd do it again, I don't regret it at all.

"What?" El asked.

"Have I told you lately how beautiful you are?" Max replied with a smile.

El blushed immediately, the redness working its way to the tips of her ears, "y...you said it yesterday...and the day before..."

"And the day before that" Max carried on her sentence, "and I'll say every day." She heard El's reply, she said 'I'm sorry' so quietly she almost missed it. Every time El said sorry it hurt. Max felt the beginnings of anger before sadness took over, sadness that El couldn't get over her misplaced sense of guilt. "Oh, for fucks sake," she finally said, grabbing El and kissing her hard, developing into passionate only seconds later. El looked stunned, "what?" Max asked.

"I...I thought you didn't want me anymore...like that."

Are you fucking serious? she thought, before replying with slightly less harsh words "what?"

"You haven't looked at me...like that...or..."

"Or what?" what the hell is she on about?

El looked at her awkwardly, "or wanted to touch me..."

Max felt like she'd just been sucker punched, how the hell could she think that? "You...you were weak and hurt and...and I didn't want to go too fast, to hurt you...to push you or make you feel uncomfortable. God, do you know how hard it's been to keep my hands off you?"

"Yes! I do...the only thing that kept me going was you, the thought that I would see you again, hold you, be with you" El said earnestly, "I fought to get back to you...I fought so hard...the things I had to do to get back to you..." Tears started running down her face, and Max wrapped her arms around her and held her so tight.

Max took a deep breath to try and keep her voice steady, taking a huge leap of faith, "I want you, El, I want you so badly" she confessed, whispering it into her ear.

"I'm right here" El replied, gaining control of her voice. Max pulled away slightly, gulping before meeting El's eyes. She looked back at Max with such love in her eyes, "Max, we don't have to do anything you're uncomfortable with, I...I know you're nervous, I'm nervous too" she said.

"El, I..." Max looked down, trying to find the right words, and sighed. "Before you disappeared, I wasn't nervous, I...I was scared." She glanced up at El who was looking at her in confusion. As she opened her mouth to say something, Max gently put her finger up to El's lips to stop her from speaking. "I was scared because I thought I would disappoint you, I mean, look at you...and then look at me" she said, a few tears escaping.

"What are you talking about? I don't understand" El said.

"You're so beautiful, and amazing, and smart...you're incredible...perfect" Max said, "and I'm...just me, there's nothing special about me, I'm not smart, or pretty, or...or anything...I was scared you'd realize that and just leave me." She paused for a second before continuing, "and my family are fucked up, they hate you, no offense" she said, hearing El unable to contain a chuckle through her own tears at Max's words, "and..."

It was El's turn to cut her off with a kiss, "you're an idiot, Max Mayfield" she stated. "But you're my idiot, a beautiful, smart, tough, sexy idiot, and I would go to hell and back for you...oh wait..." she said, with a smirk on her face.

Max couldn't help but laugh, "I guess we have something in common, we're both idiots" she said, looking El in the eye and grinning.

"Yeah" El agreed, not breaking their intense eye contact, "whatever you say." And with that she leaned in and kissed Max again, the love and passion evident to her in that kiss.

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