SUBMIT✔ (DSD SERIES, BOOK TWO) WATTYS2020

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!🎇🎇🎇🎉

HOPE YOUR YEAR WILL BE SUCCESSFUL AND PRODUCTIVE.

SHOUT OUT 👤 🔊 TO _Sidriya_Piyu_ who took the time out to inbox me and tell me Happy New Year😁😊. She's so sweet.

That gesture was so sweet and I think her sweetness should be awarded soo.....

Here's Johnny!😱😱😱😰😰😰😨😨😂😂🙌🙌🙌🙏🙏

Insert your 'I love you's here😂😂💜💜👈

Again Happy Happy New Year..🎆🎆🎆🎆🎆🎆

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"Is this really necessary?" Lexi asks as she hands me the blindfold.

After I'd sent that text to Johnattan, he replied a second later with an elated 'I'd love to'. How I know he's elated? After he sent that message he sent a GIF with a man running up and down a street screaming yes. Lexi had literally cracked up laughing at his reaction but I was too busy thinking to laugh along.

I needed an idea. I couldn't stand to look a Johnattan, that is, without remembering Liam and going into a panic attack. I needed a way to avoid that outcome.

To shield away Johnattan so I won't see Liam's face every time I look at him. That's when it hit me and I found a way to avoid that outcome. Shielding my eyes with a blindfold.

"Would you rather I see his face and get a panic attack on spot so they can admit me to the hospital again?" I say as I move my body to the edge of the bed ensuring I don't accidentally hit my leg against the bedframe.

"No," she says as she pops open my pill bottle handing me two.

"Then yes it's necessary."

I pop the pills into my mouth swallowing dry before taking the glass of water from Lexi and drinking it dry.

I am nervous – scratch that – nervous doesn't describe what I'm feeling good enough. Let me correct myself... I'm freaking out!

My hearts fighting against my ribs to get out and my brain is running every possible outcome of this meeting and trust me most of them don't end well.