HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
It's 2:18 when I'm writing this, I hope you're happy. 2017 was a year of self-discovery. It really was. Nothing big happened, but it was an essential transition. I needed time to find out who I am. Like character development, you need time to progress a person until their purpose comes clear. A lot of friends were pissed when I told them that. Remember AJ? He's out. So is Catwalk. I'm gonna miss Catwalk like heck, but we don't click anymore. She doesn't understand my rambles half the time, and the times we do talk are about how life sucks. I wanna get this girl named Arianna out of my life but she's everywhere. I can't avoid her.
I went from having one friend to having many friends. It was easy to change with one friend, especially when you didn't have to change at all for them. Rebel also let things slide and is the first to kill an argument. Now I had to please so many people whose morals weren't synced with me at all. It's crazy. Arianna really likes to argue, even when she didn't know what she was talking about. Now I find myself arguing just to be against her. I still do research though in between arguments.
I remember when I really didn't appreciate nap time in preschool. All I cared about was sleeping in a pretty pose hoping some guy will notice me. It was challenging because I was usually wearing a dress. I knew how to flirt when I was young though. Now I just seem to flirt with anyone, and I wish nap time existed.
I'm also gonna be missing school the day we get back. I'm extremely nervous for what that has in store. More homework? Projects?? Anxiety build up??? At least I'm leaving in the middle of 3rd period which is at the end of the day. Finals are coming up soon. I'm so nervous for the math one. I'm REALLY going to study now. I at least need a B. Then I have high hopes for college.
I wanted to update To Be but I'm having trouble with song selection. My original plan was Satisfied, then Requiem, and now I can't stop changing my mind. Maybe Burn? Maybe She used to be mine? Love you like a table? Roxie Hart? The possibilities are endless.
I would make this longer if I wasn't extremely exhausted. Estoy cansado demasiado.
#2k18
Sincerely me
