The Bond Between Us

see you again

Rey's POV

All day I worked on making buildings, helped Leia with organization strategies, ran around with Finn and Poe, and volunteered. So I'm beyond exhausted right now.

I sigh and decide to go to the meadow and meditate. I hope this will relax me a little. I walk that way and admire the golden rays of sunlight painting the trees from the sunset. I didn't know anything could be this beautiful.

As I'm about to sit in my normal spot in the meadow, I look towards the forest....I hear something calling me. I start off walking towards it, once I get inside the forest I break into a run. For a minute or so it's all forest, but then I run out of it to a cliff that over looks the sun setting on the royal blue ocean. The calling stops, showing that I've found where it wanted me to be. I smile and close my eyes and enjoy the warmth from the sun wrapping around me and take a deep breath of the salty ocean air in. It's all so peaceful. I finally relax and smile wider. It feels so good to belong somewhere...even just for a short while.

"Rey..."

I snap my eyes open as soon as I hear that low voice, I know exactly who it is. I don't turn to look for him. "I thought I blocked you...I thought I-"

He chuckles lowly, interrupting me. "You aren't as powerful as you think you are. You still have a lot to learn."

I whip towards the sound of his voice. Sure enough there he is, standing only a few feet away from me. He looks better than the last time I saw him. The bags that were under his eyes have disappeared, he looks more composed than the last time I saw him, his aura feels colder, and the scar I gave him is still on his face. I notice him examining me too. I scowl at him "I have nothing to say to you Kylo." I notice him shudder a little, I've stopped calling him Ben.

He stares at me with his deep, brown eyes. "The force connected us today, not me. I don't have anything to say to you either." With that he turns and starts walking away. I'm tempted to reach out for him. But he stops and turns back to me and sighs "No matter where I go the force will continue to connect us and we'll still be able to see each other." He walks back over to me, stopping a little closer than he was before. "It won't go away until we say what it needs us to say." He doesn't sound vile when he says this, he sounds almost calm.

I sigh and sit on the cliff. I don't want to do this at all. I rather punch him in the face for what he did. He mirrors me and sits across from me. We sit in silence for a moment, just looking at each other. I start, "How could you." He looks a little taken aback when I say this, but lets me continue. "How could you do that to me. How could you want to rule over others just as you were ruled over by Snoke?" He scowls a little. "How could you do this to Leia? How could you do this to me?"

He shakes his head "We could've ruled in our own way. We could've forgotten all of what was before. Everything that controlled us and our decisions." He stopped for a moment just to look at me. "How could you do that to me? How could you refuse after I begged you to join me and then reach for your light saber?" He swallows "You were going to kill me if I hadn't pulled the light saber towards me."

I scowled. "I wasn't going to kill you! I wasn't sure if you'd let me live if I didn't join you! I defended myself."

He stared at me in silence for a moment. I could see his jaw flexing. He was angry. "You realize I can't help but be angry at you."

I thought about that for a moment. Ben became Kylo because he woke up to see someone he trusted about to kill him with a light saber, in his point of view. So maybe when he saw me, a person he trusted, reaching for a light saber....it was heart break all over again. I look at him in the eyes. "I'm sorry."

He blinked a few times "...What?" As if he was unsure of what I said.

I sighed. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the light saber."

He stared at me, he looked slightly shocked. He just slowly nodded, without breaking eye contact and spoke again after a long pause. "Rey..."

He said my name so softly, as if he were afraid that if he said it any louder he'd break it. I watched him look down at his gloved hands and then back up to meet my eyes.

"Why did you stop calling me Ben?"

I opened my mouth but before I could get anything out, he disappeared.

By instinct I reached out as if I could grab him "Kylo..." but he was gone.

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Kylo's POV

I sat back against the wall. The force bond had disconnected. Why did I ask her that? I wanted to know, deep down I want to know why she doesn't call me Ben anymore. But I didn't want her to know that I wanted that answer.

I sighed and got up and walked to an empty room with large windows at the front that looked out at the stars. No one else knows about this room but myself.

I'm still a little in shock that the force connected us. It's been so long, and Rey had been trying to block me. I laughed, she still has so much she needs to understand.

I was bewildered when I saw her. It felt so warm where she was. She had her eyes closed, taking in the sun. I admit I did watch her a little before I said anything. She just....looked so beautiful in the sunlight. Her hair was flowing perfectly around her face and her stance looked so relaxed.

I shook the thought from my head and cleared my throat as I felt the heat rising to my face. I hate that I feel this way about her. I slammed my hand against the glass. She has power over me. She could turn on me again and I would be left looking up at her as she closes the ship door, just like she did two months ago. I clench my teeth at the thought. I replayed that moment over, and over in my head. It was like poison for me. I pushed away from the wall and walked back to my chambers. I won't let her get away ever again.