bitches b lyke (black/gay rants)

no one understand my moodswings or states of depression

my mood = as fluid as my gender used to be.

I don't stay happy. I don't stay sad. I am NEVER neutral. I have these moods with subcategories.

It's easy to make me happy. All you have to do is talk about a subject that I like or compliment my work because compliments on my appearance don't really faze me. Why? Because it's nothing I haven't heard before. I love feedback on my work though, because I'm more than just good looks, even though I'm shallow and I'd prefer to look good.

The only time compliments matter is really when it comes from a guy who I find attractive, personality wise and a little bit of the looks wise but anyways, we're not jumping into my type of guys.

My happiness is not long lasting since I am flipped by the littlest of things. Let's say I have plans and my friends don't answer the phones. That means I'm 2/3 ready to put pajamas on and take my ass to sleep because y'all fuckin around and not taking plans seriously.

What really makes me happy though, is freedom. Simple.

What makes me angry.....

Ignorant people with opinions that they claim are right because they're "never" wrong and "fuck everyone else's opinions."

I hate homophobia, I hate people oppressing others for no reason because no one deserves to feel like less. I hate those judgmental looks people give me. Can't decide if it's because I'm gay or if it's because I'm black. Hmm...real shade.

So fuck yes, I'm double oppressed, what's good?

How to make me sad....

That's easy too. Even though nothing really makes me cry anymore. I don't know..:I'm just randomly triggered by small shit. Under lots of pressure I might cry. Public humiliation. The thought of being alone forever. LMAO. that's so easy.

And when people say, you don't look sad. Well duh bitch am I supposed to be hugging an empty casket and crying on the floor? There are times for crying and times for holding that shit in. I can't even control when I cry.

I cry almost every time I'm supposed to hold it in.

What makes y'all cry?