bitches b lyke (black/gay rants)

here are my thoughts on the bullshit

Am I mad? fuck yeah i'm mad. This corona bullshit has grabbed my social life by it's thin ass edges and choke slammed her against the walls. Poor miss thing. But Corona ain't even pissed off as much as this boy I thought i was "vibing" with. We had been friends for some time before I slid him a napkin on V-Day w my number on it, thinking i was so smooth...

he messages me a few days after following some hesitation and we go at it, and I mean like we're so cute together you'd think that shit was a movie. It lasts for about a good month before I decide: you know what? homeboy isn't like other dudes. so lemme throw this back on him. Saturday, this nigga goes INNNNN and I mean the typa shit to make you want to get married.

He holds me when we're done and has the audacity to tell me he doesn't want to be anything. What the fuck? What Kensington crackhead slithered up to him and whispered such ideas into his head? Like my riding abilities had him entering the 4th, 5th, and 6th dimension at the same time. I fucked that nigga into the space time continuum and he HAS THE FUCKING GALL TO NOT WANT ME.

and then when I talk to him about how it feels like it's the end of the line for him and I because he can't put his pride aside and step into his grownup pants (maturity). he just acts like it's cool, yk, "We'll still hangout" type shit. Bullshit.

but that's not all mamita, the fucking dude writes a whole poem for some bitch he met in NY while visiting for TWO DAYS. He don't even know sis but is writing poetry for ha?

you know how many poems I done wrote about this nigga?? I'm finna stop writing at this point. 7 days out of school and im ready to off myself over this dumb shit. my heart has been trampled, but boy am I inspired to write from this shit. This is not what I had in mind for 2020. At. ALL