Never Dream

Chapter One: The Dreams

I've tried so hard to stay awake.

So hard. All for nothing.

As my consciousness fades, I know I'm in trouble, but there is nothing I can do to stop it.

I'm just so tired...

As my dream comes into focus I brace myself for Evan. I shut my eyes and wish myself awake.

"Melissa...please open your eyes..." His voice pleads with me. "I'm sorry, we don't have much time."

A silent tear makes it's way down my face and I can feel a sob bubbling to my lips. 'No,' I tell myself, 'I have to be strong. For my own sake. For Evan's sake.'

I swallow my sob and open my eyes to the single most gorgeous man I've ever met. He's beautiful inside and out; sweet, kind, compassionate. His smile is enough to steal anyone's heart. Even mine.

His soft eyes reflect my sorrow. We are both stuck in this dream. He gently sits me down in a chair that's suddenly right behind me. I stare at him in anguish as he starts to speak to me, already knowing what comes next. Not listening, my eyes roam his body taking note of his beautiful green eyes and his heart stopping smile. Even if his smile is fake, it's gorgeous all the same. I know he is trying to be strong for the both of us. And somehow that just makes my pain worse.

His voice softly pulls me out of my reverie and I look up into his eyes. He kneels down in front of me and leans close, until our noses touch. I'm afraid of what comes next: our kiss. One that makes me cry everytime, but we can't control it. A mysterious force pushes us together until our lips touch. What started out with a chaste, comforting touch of lips, turns into a longing kiss until the world fades...

My consciousness comes with a start and soon I am sobbing uncontrollably. After 5 minutes or so, my calm comes back at me and suddenly I feel foolish.

I look back at the clock and sigh. It was only 5 am. Sighing, I realize I should probably get up. School was only in a couple hours away and a shower doesn't sound too bad right now. I sigh and get ready.