Matt ,Kylo Ren and Ben Solo Smut And Fluff Imagines

[Kylo Ren]I'm Useless(Fluff)

Requested by FaithTickel
Faith is in a relationship with Kylo Ren. One day, she starts to have a mental breakdown because she feels like she's useless.

Warning: this chapter will contain self-strangle

Anxiety

Depression.

Don't start the song yet.

Faith's P.O.V

Kylo and I have been dating for 3 months then decided to become a thing.
Kylo announced by kissing me full on the lips. Everyone was shocked especially Snoke.  Everyone accepted our relationship but their minds are so open I can hear what they are saying. They talk about me.

What was Kylo thinking?

What does he see in her?

She's so ugly every time I look at her I lose my appetite.

The commander deserves better than that ugly troll.

Those words hurt me to the brim that I have major anxiety attacks and I strangle myself instead of cutting my wrists. Kylo doesn't notice because I always wear a turtleneck or a choker that covers it.

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This morning the voices got worse and worser for me while we're up on the bridge. As General Hux and Kylo were talking I just keep listening to the horrid voices .

Ugh this bitch is here again up on the bridge with the commander ?

Why does she still stay with the first order, I would have floated her.

I would have killed myself if I ever looked like her.

I felt tears of anger coming out of my  eyes. Maybe it's all true. Maybe I am useless and my nose may be perfect like the other girls in magazines.
Then I heard a nasty voice I heard from Hux.

Stupid girl should end her life of how pathetic she is. I pray that Snoke ends her someday.

Then that's when I let my anger out.
"SHUT UP. EVERYONE, JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP I ALREADY KNOW I'M PATHETIC AND USELESS " I screamed. I looked at everyone starring at me with wide eyes even Hux And Kylo.
I ran out of the bridge crying with Kylo calling my name.

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I locked the door to the bedroom making sure Kylo doesn't come in.
I removed my turtleneck shirt revealing the marks on my neck. I walk up to the tall mirror revealing my blonde hair and grey eyes looking at me. I hate how I look. I hate how My body is. I hate how My nose is shaped. I hate me. I'm useless.  I donr deserve anyone.My hands wrap around my neck squeezing the life out of me. "I'm useless " I whisper to myself over, over and over again until I fall to my knees already feeling weak and the door breaks open. I stop squeezing my neck to death but my hands are still around my neck. Kylo stood for a couple of seconds until he strides to my side removing my hands  observing my bruised neck. He brings me into his arms holding me as I start to cry.

"I'm useless Kylo "

"What?" I removed my face off his chest.

"I'm useless Kylo. I don't deserve you at all. I'm a weakness to your side and Everyone thinks so too " I cried even harder. Kylo picks me up bridal style walking to our shared bed 
Laying down together.
He cups my cheek and says "I don't give a fuck what the others say, they can go fuck themselves for all I care.
I chose you for a reason, because I love you". He brings me in for a kiss and I kiss back. Kylo breaks free from my lips moving my bruised neck  placing gentle kisses.

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We just lay there with our arms wrapped around each other with Kylo  petting my head. 
"Kylo,  remember the song we first listened to ?" I asked.

"Yes, it was when we were trapped in a elevator and it came on. We were slow dancing when a couple of stormtroopers finally got us out " he tells me the story.

"Can you please sing it to me please " I asked.  He looks at me into my pleading eyes and gives in kissing the top of my head clearing his throat ready to sing.

Start the song

"Through the rain and all the clatter
Under the Fremont bridge I saw a pigeon fly
Fly in fear from the raptor come to take its life" I snuggle closer to him.

"And as it closed in for the capture
I funneled the fear through my ancient eyes
To see in flight, what I know are the bitter mechanics of life.
Under my hat it reads the lines are all imagined
A fact of life I know to hide from my little girls
I know my place amongst the bugs and all the animals
And it's from these ordinary people you are longing to be free." Our hands start to intertwine as he continues to sing.

"My hotel and on the TV
A preacher on a stage like a buzzard cries
Out a warning of phony sorrow, he's trying to get a rise." He gives my hand a quick peck on my knuckles.

"The cyanide from an almond
Let him look at your hands, get the angles right
Ace of spades, port of morrow, life is death is life." We both start to look in each others eyes.

"I saw a photograph: Cologne in '27
And then a postcard after the bombs in '45
Must've been a world of evil clowns that let it happen

But now I recognize, dear listeners
That you were there and so was I

Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah

Under my hat I know the lines are all imagined
A fact of life I must impress on my little girls
I know my place amongst the creatures in the pageant
And there are flowers in the garbage, and a skull under your curls

Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah..."

Kylo's P.O.V

Faith drifts into slumber laying on my arms. I kiss her neck one more time falling to sleep not before saying "I love you".

A/n: hey guys long time no see and happy New year yay we made it .
JayCheshire I haven't forgotten about you so stay tuned and FaithTickel I hope you enjoyed it love.