legends ; ryden

27- final

legends ; 27- final

"hey" ryan said  as he looked up at brendon. brendon smiles as ryan shrugged off his backpack. "hey." he responded and embraced ryan in a tight hug. ryan buried his head into brendons shoulder, breathing in his smell. their hug lasted a few minutes before ryan pulled away rubbing his eyes tiredly. "how are you?" brendon asked, ryan shrugging in response. "tired." he sighed. "you?" he asked back and brendon agreed with ryan, he was tired... of everything. hesitantly brendon reaches into his bag and grabbing what they needed, handing one to ryan. "you ready?" brendon asked, cocking the gun in his hand, ryan following suit. "as i'll ever be." ryan responded shakily. "and you're sure?" brendon asked and ryan thought for a moment.  "yes." he replied sharply. brendon nodded, pressing his lips into a tight line. the younger boy was surprised that he was the one having second thoughts right now. 

ryan held the gun in his hand tightly. he examined the small hand gun and ran his fingers along the barrel. brendon watched his boyfriend admire the gun and suddenly he was scared, this was it for them. remembering the letter he wrote to his dad, he checked his pockets to make sure it was there.

i'm sorry dad,
i know you lost mom and now you're loosing me but trust me, this is for the best. i don't want to hide anymore, i never did. not only will i be with mom, but i'll be with the person i love. she'll love him, hopefully you would have too.

i'll see you sooner than you think.
i love you,
brendon

he stared at the paper with tears in his eyes, a few tears slipping down his cheek and onto his cheek. "b?" ryan asked, grabbing his hand. brendon looked up from the paper into his brown eyes, "are you sure?" he asked and brendon brought his eyes back down to the paper, the words he wrote calming him. he was ready, he was ready to see his mom again. "yeah." brendon laughed with no amusement in his voice. "god, i'm so sure." he said as he kissed ryan.

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ryan finally felt the tears pool, holding onto brendon tightly he knew brendon felt the same. "ready?" brendon asked with a shaky breath. ryan held his eyes closed and nodded. "okay." brendon said looking  at ryan with wet tears rolling down his cheeks. "i love you." he whispered. ryan brought his eyes up at him and pressed his lips against brendons weakly. both of them keeping their eyes closed, ryan pressed the end of the gun to his temple. he replied "i love you too."

and in only a moment, that seemed to last a lifetime, the trigger was pulled and brendon held a lifeless ryan in his arms. keeping his eyes locked shut, they fell to the ground. laying beside one another, hoping they could finally rest in the peace that they've been praying for.